why does it feel so easy to be depressed

December 6, 2007 5:16am CST
I suffered from depression about 4 years ago due to a huge family problem and a physically and mentally abusive relationship. I used a razor on myself and it was a great relief when i watched blood stream from me. in a sick way it felt good. I was too ashamed to go to the doctors so i let it continue andeven though i managed to get out of the relation ship 2 years ago, i still feel that when things get me down the only option would be the razors again. I don't do it but the feeling is so tempting. I feel as though that will always be my first thought when things go wrong. Am even more worried now as i have had a baby who is 4 weeks old and it is stressful. I have coped ok so far but am worried about evetything getting on top of me. Why is it so easy to be depressed?
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@kwenge (2487)
• Kenya
6 Dec 07
First of all I have to tell you sorry for what you are going through. Then I think the depression you are feeling now is called postnatal depression which is common in most mothers and it will go away soon. Please don't keep on remembering the past things, but focus on your future and the future of the bundle of joy you are holding right now. Let your baby give you a new hope now. Live your life for your baby now and stop stressing yourself about minor past things. I want when you look at your baby you smile and console your self.
• Philippines
6 Dec 07
It would be easy to feel depressed because we allow ourselves to be sucked in the emotion. If you move around and if you make a things-to-do-list or set goals for your everyday routine, there will be little time of thinking about being depressed because your clock would be running. What you used to do before and what you may think of doing based on what you say, should never cross your mind anymore, especially when you have a baby who would need to you the most. I can just imagine how tiring and challenging your situation is. I have challenges on my own and it may be a different level and category as yours, but one thing that should keep you going is to whom you need to show and prove your importance. Your baby is your priority now and that would be taking care of other stuff. If mylotting helps you express yourself and perhaps vent any undesirable feelings you may have, then let mylot be the place to make you feel better! Keep your thoughts up and think that you also get to help others with what you discuss about. You also touch other people! (^_^) Peace to you!
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6 Dec 07
I understand what your feeling, when i was a lot younger, mid teens, my home life was really quite abusive. I felt angry all the time and was lashing out. By accident one day, i cut myself and to an extent it relieved my frustration and anger. Unforntunitly it became a habit, and to calm myself down i'd go somewhere quiet and make small, unnoticable cuts. This went on for about a year, i stopped doing it in the end because i knew it was totally unhealthy and how far would it go?! Don't be ashamed and don't be scared. You have a baby now, who's dependant totally on you, you need to remain strong, mentally and physically. If your finding being a new parent tough, and most people do, or your having trouble letting the past go. You need to seek some help for not just yourself but for your baby too. Speak to your doctor, have councilling to help you move on and live a happier life. I know from my own experiences that you can't put these things in a box and hope they'll go away. You have to take it out and deal with it, it's hard, but it's not as hard as dragging it around for the rest of your life!! I wish you all the very best, take care
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@addysmum (1225)
• Canada
7 Dec 07
First go to your doctor and tell him, if you have a history of depression then PPD will be a concern so get a support system in place now before things get ahead of you and you get feeling depressed. Babies are hard sometimes and it feels like it will never end but it does trust me, I have a 4 year old and a 5 month old and my baby is very high demand. My 4 year old told me tonight he wishes the baby never came because he never gets to be with me any more. Chin up and please set up a system now even if you never use it have it in place and remember you have people her that can help you some.
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@dbmax41 (585)
• United States
7 Dec 07
Good advise Kids are demanding on very wearing on the spirit. I agree a suport system is best.
@almajoes (53)
• United States
6 Dec 07
My sister went through depression to a degree like you did. Doesn't it seem like it is easier to be depressed rather than happy? There's just too much stress in this world and sometimes you can crumble beneath the pressure.
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@casper20 (1463)
• India
6 Dec 07
Sorry to say,but i think that is what is called sadistic pleasure. That is really bad,actually a sin to hurt yourself.In a way you are trying to hurt the presence of God in you.Try to see all the worries as tests for your endurance and prove that nothing can fail you . and if you ask why it is easy to get depressed,i would ask you that dont you feel it is very easy to be evil and not good? It is because the atmosphere is more negative.So only ur will power can help you out. So next time such depression comes say to yourself "Nothing can harm me.God is with me."
@addysmum (1225)
• Canada
7 Dec 07
While all this may sound good to you God has nothing to do with depression and she is not trying to hurt God she is fighting herself and her chemistry. God can help her but what she needs is medical help and treatment. Bringing God to a depressed persons in the manor that you just did can be more harmful then helpful. I am not saying you were being anything other then helpful but I have dealt with depression myself, my best friend had PPD with 2 of 3 babies and when a family member told her she was hurting God with her actions she only got worse and slipped into full on psychosis and my cousin tried to kill herself believe me no thought of God was involved. God is great all the time in anyones life but should not be brought to the table when dealing with depression in the manor you did it can make things a lot worse. Besides that a lot of depressed people kill themselves and others to be with God and end their pain.
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@casper20 (1463)
• India
7 Dec 07
sorry to mushumushu.. i didnt mean to hurt you.just take what u think as good for you and dont care about anything else i hve said. how are you doing now?i know u must be busy with ur kid..rt? take good care of urself and ur kid.
12 Dec 07
Thanks you addysmum! You hit the nail on the head. Ant to casper20, thank you for your advice. I appreciate that you are trying to help but I am not the most religious of people and I hope I'm not sadistic.
@besthope44 (12134)
• India
10 Oct 10
Getting too much emotional and worrying negative things are main leads for depression
• Philippines
8 Dec 07
I almost tried using razor but i was thinking of using other option cause I know it will hurt a lot. But then again, its never nice to hurt your self, try to be strong. Everyone I guess got depression once in day or two or weeks, its a cycle mood of human being, You are not the only one who experience this. There are worse too. In times of depression all you need to do is pray, listen to God's word. Ask Him in your prayers whatever you like, He will answer those. Just be strong and ask for strength to God. We have all our ups and downs but just have faith in yourself and to everything that you believe.
• Philippines
7 Dec 07
please take care my friend..
@nkhanna (922)
• India
7 Dec 07
its really sad to hear about your problem in your relationship.i can very well understand what kind of pain your are going through since once in my life time i had the same feeling.however all i can say that you need to be ok for your baby.you need to overcome this.try to understand that hurting yourself is not going to take you off the problems.you need to engage yourself in some work so that you are not distracted.bad and worse things happen to everybody but one has to fight against it.dont give up to the situations,be bold to face them.and remmeber never hurt yourslef for someone who dont deserve your sacrifice.sorry if at all i have hurted you.
@asgtswife04 (2475)
• United States
7 Dec 07
Sweetie...I really believe that maybe you should go into some kind of counseling abou this. Having a baby can be very stressful at times, but you don't need to resort back to your old ways of dealing with things. I, too, had a problem somewhat like yours, but instead of cutting myself i would just scratch myself and make sores all over my body. Medication may be needed in these type of situations to help with the stress and anxiety. I know it was needed for me, but it's not for everyone. I am so sorry that you were in an abusive situation. I have been there before to. If you ever need to talk i'm always here to listen. Good luck and keep us posted on how things are going. God bless