I'm not a bad Person, but,,,,

Oh I know how you feel, I am alone as well although I did get some invites but as I found out a couple of years ago, joining in on someone elses family doesn't make you feel any less alone. I think you have to look at your life as a new fork in the road of your life and things have got to change, maybe joinging clubs or something or like a friend of mine did moved to a country town met a man and married for the first time at the age of 64 years of age, I think change in your life is the answer, another friend of mine met some lovely friends in a walking club, they go everywhere on walks, I don't know what you are interested in so even if you join a club with all women you could very well meet someone through them, just look at your life as a life change.. maybe you could join a local forum group, I belong to one here in Australia and they have meets all over the country and a couple of them have gotten together... I wish you luck as I know being alone takes getting used to but once you do get used to being independent I call it, one becomes very selfish with ones own life...I hope you get over it but as I have found Christmas is the hardest day of all....we all feel it.

First of all im sorry to hear about your partner. Im sure things have been very difficult for you. And im sure no one thinks your a bad person for feeling this way. Its quite understandable that you dont want to be alone. Of course you will go out again. You should get out there, try to make some new friends. Maybe it will develop into something more. Maybe even ask some of your friends to help you out. Im sure they would be more then willing to help. I hope things get better for you.

I am really sorry for you.Iam glad you are sharing your sorrow here with fellow mylottians.I was going through the responses they all seem to be so good and have all suggested ways for you to get over your loss and loneliness.I hope you find someone.Maybe a group of friends might be able to ease your loneliness.My prayers are with you.God Bless.Hope the new year has good things in store for you dear.

Don't be too hard on yourself! You are definitely NOT a bad person. What you are right now is grieving, and sorrow makes for a very tough mate--won't let you think about anything else, keeps your heart heavy, makes your tears flow, makes you long for the good times when you enjoyed your significant other's company. You need the time to grieve, because your emotions cannot just adjust at the snap of a finger. Allow yourself some time, but try to reach out as well. The other posters before me have excellent ideas on how to recover from your grief. I would like to add my two cents' worth: consult a grief counsellor, join a widow/widower's support group, have a really, really, really good cry. Let the tears flow until you cannot cry anymore. It is very cleansing and you will get that heaviness off your chest. And don't be afraid to reach out to us here at myLot--I am sure our community will be happy to lend our collective shoulder for you to lean on. Be well, missbdoll, and may the new year bring you a new love! even if is only to love yourself more....

Well one thing about it missbdoll, you can be sure, lilaclady and I will be here for you! I know it must be a very hard time for you, we totally understand, because I myself am always there for someone when they need someone! I know to you our supportive posts may seem fruitless, but to us they are well worth the trouble, for your time of need! At this time, my only advice I can help you with is, you do need to get out, and be about! Just when you think that you are carrying all the weight of the world on your shoulders, somewhere, someplace, there is another person, who probably has it worse than you! And this will be your calling, this will be your chance to do for someone else, the same effort that we are trying to do for you! And you will be surprised how much of that weight you feel on your shoulders will be lifted! That is the best therapy available to us as christians! And hopefully it will be enough for you to get a foothold on the healing of your loss!

I am sorry seeing this.And I think the important thing is you cannot live in the shadow along.I can feel the feelings.But,as you know,you can do many things with others,such as, shopping with old friends,talking,even helping friend look after baby.I am chinese.nowadays,chinese women always say:"woman should do herself good."Wish you better and better.