do you get these kind of days?

Philippines
January 6, 2008 5:03am CST
Well, there's really not much worth saying to anyone, but thank God for pen and paper, or for the keyboard and monitor for that matter, because they don't seem to mind if I just blabber on about the inexplicable beatings in my blood-spewing heart. Anyway, it's a nice day, not sunny, as the bright morning sun is always banging its glare against my glass window panes, which sometimes give me pounding headaches. But it's kind of dreary, too, with thin clouds just hanging overhead and the humidity rising like a gray envelope around me. It's absurd, but sometimes the weather just seems to take hold of my sanities. Why would my moodies be dependent on whether the sun shines, the rain pounds on my rooftop, or when the day is just plain cloudy that it is hard to decipher whether to be happy and gay or sad and gloomy? But I am not saying that it is the sun that makes people gay (read: homosexual), no pun intended. Tis strange, but I kinda hate the feeling. I don't want to move. I just want to sit all day before my computer and do some twiddling and twaddling (if you know what that means)... It feels like a lazy Saturday morning. I just had my Milo, but I don't seem to exude the energy advertised about it. Hmmm....strange... another bout with melancholia? I pray not. It would be nice if indeed it is a lazy Saturday morning. But the fact is, it is Monday and I've to get my behind off this chair or else I'll be late for that 10 o'clock press con!do you have these kind of days? take care and God bless you all!:-)
1 response
7 Jan 08
Only when I feel depressed. Generally when I am I shut off and keep to myself, I used to hide it but it became a problem because I couldn't do it forever and it only caused me to go like I've mentioned. Well, if not for feeling down it's because someones annoyed me and out of fear of saying something I keep shut. ~Joey