Non contact Dad finding it hard to deal with

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About 3 years ago I divorced my ex wife and also had a daughter with her,she is now 12 years old. after the divorce i tried to contact my ex to try to see my daughter and found out that she had moved, to where i dont know. for two years i trapsed the internet and electoral roll records trying to find them as i was keen to see my daughter. last august my now wife phoned the post office where she used to live and by chance there was a lady in there who knew her and also knew where she had to moved to........also telling me that my ex wife died two months after the divorce. shocked and angry,i phoned the number and my daughters uncle, my ex's step brother answered the phone, i said where is my daughter and is she alright, can i talk to her, he said she will not and said she is not ready as i havent seen her in two years. i also asked how the grandmother was, she had lived with us too, he said she is FINE. well.....the way he said it and the feeling i had was not good, the very next day i trapsed through the internet and found out that she was not fine she was also dead.....what a liar, what was he upto? i decided to take the 230 mile trip to the house and get some answers out of him, but they were not in, i waited from 3pm till 10:30pm at night before they got in and i waited until they got into the house before i knocked at the door. i knocked and he came into the hallway and i could see him through the window and he would not open the door. before this i phoned the social services and they told me that if he did not answer the door i was to call the police and they would assist me in getting my daughter. so, with that i called the police and they asked me what was going on i explained and they went inside and asked him a few questions. me and my wife almost got arrested for breach of the peace. they said to go away and they would not be prepared to let me see my daughter and that if i turned up at the house again i would be arrested. the next day i got home and a court official knocks at the door with a prohibited steps and residence order against me for hurting my child with chinese burns and strangling her,i started to read it but couldnt finish as i was in so much shock.this was rubbish. so, now we are going through the courts system, which stinks and takes so long. so far he has stopped me getting gp records and school records, no photographs even from the school and i cant even contact her. in december i went to see the cafcass officer to meet with him and halfway through the alloted time i asked where he was and she said she had already seen my daughter and him seoperately, i though there was going to be a mediation, but he refused to meet with me. in december i was granted 3 letters in three months and then see how we go from there. but the judge said and QUOTE,"if you dont get anywhere in the 3 months i think you should walk away", unbeleivable. well those words were stuck with me all through christmas and probably for the rest of my life. i have written my first letter and am waiting for a response from my daughter. i have also been told she hates me and does not like me, if she came to live with me she would run away. she has been brainwashed and programmed, i had an excellent relationship with my daughter until they moved and not it is no more. i would like to know what people think of how i have been treated in this situation and how would they react. thankyou.