Anyone have a death of a loved one recently..or anniversary of a death?

yes my fathers passing was on march 21 2004

My prayers, sympathies and heart goes out to you. I understand the difficult times you are having. And would just like to say it has been my experience that it does not easier, you only learn to cope. And learning to cope does not mean forgetting. I am a mother, and feel confident enough to say that your mother loved you enough that she would not want you to be miserable, she would want you to find peace. It seems as though I share several things with you, for I too have lost my mother, and she too had Alzheimer's. My mother passed away May 2005. We were very close and she was-is an awesome person. She not only raised me, but I lived next door to her the majority of my adult life as well. In 2002 she had a stroke that triggered the onset of Alzheimer's. She was also afflicted with many other problems such as Congestive heart failure, COPD, degenerative arthritis, and much more. I was fortunate to have a wonderful blessed husband who loved her (almost) as much as I did, and together we moved her and my stepfather into our home and cared for them both until their graduation to heaven. My stepfather ( of almost 25 years) passed April 2004 of heart failure, then my mother in May 2005. Then totally unexpectedly I lost my Husband October 2005. So my, friend I do understand your pain and sorrow. And believe me - it doesn't get easier, you just learn to cope. You don't forget - you will forever remember and long for them. So don't fear that part. Take comfort - that she is no longer suffering in anyway. I can't explain how - but I believe God allows our loved one to see and know about the good things in our life - therefore she knows of your relationship and is very proud of you. It has been several years now for me, and yes holidays, special days, anniversaries, ect.. are still tough. Nothing is the same without them, but God get me through each day. My philosophy is - If saved by Jesus Christ - dieing is not the hard part - it is living that is tough. So all I can do is surrender it all to Christ and accept this - I don't have to understand, I just need Jesus to hold my hand. Have you read "Footprints" ? Well years later I look back and I still only see one set of footprints. It is OK to mourn your loved ones, It is OK to miss them. Just remember, that you can always keep them alive in your memories, and somehow God will allow them to know and be a apart of every good thing that happens in your live. Again, my prayers are with you. May you surrender your grieve to God and He grant you peace.

I lost my mom on June 10 2007...she passed away the morning I was going to see her in the hospital so she could meet my daughter who was 6 weeks old at the time - my mom lived in Brisbane & I live 1000kms away in Mackay...I just wish she was able to hold on just a few hours longer so she could've met Harmony-Skye