What I have done wrong?

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I used to be guided with the thoughts of "give without expecting anything in return". When my friends ask for help I did'nt have any 2nd thought but to think of how can I extend help, whether money, my time or my abilities. I have a friend whom I helped her out earn extra income just asked her to return the money. She was able to get the earnings but she did not totally give me the money. I did not push her to return it until one day I needed money for my an emergenxy expenses. I have not received any single penny and then my friend did not show up..... After that, I again helped another friend who also need a job. I opened a cafe for her with the help of another friend. We assigned her to manage the cafe since we are working. Time came when there was no ROI and the business is turning to zero. I was the one blamed by my friend and told me she will be leaving the cafe and doesn't want to work there anymore. My point is why she could not think of any strategies to promote the cafe? I put it up because food matter is her expertise and that is the business she wanted. She was not able to amnage it properly then I was the one to be blamed???? I was trusted by my friend to manage a school for the poor. When I started it, I recommended a friend who also volunteered to teach there. We let her teach in the school. Time passed and this teacher without my knowing stubbed me at my back. She kept saying (to our common friends who are involved in teh school management)bad things about me that were all false and sort of character assasination. I tried to handle things professionally though it really hurted me much. Later on I found out that she was the one doing wrong as secretly reported to me by parents and another teacher. She was the one doing all her accusations to me. Too bad..... This was the most hurting of all my unfortunate experiences....Another friend whom I thought my best friend really caused to much pain. I trusted him a lot. I helped him in all his needs, his profession, his ambition/dreams to come to reality, his families and even a shoulder to cry on. I put him on top of my priorities. I even spent my time mostly for his needs just to assit him. I even have to sacrifice my own time with my family just to assist him. Until one day I realized I was many times taken for granted by him until I feel like I fed up with all these. I was taken for granted that is how I feel. Many times not only once or twice. ANyways, I am ranting right now 'coz I really felt hurt and feel like I want to get mad to those so called "friends" whom I took time and effort to help. Am I expecting returns? I guess so..But I think this is just normal to friends. I realized that when you helped somebody, really you should not expect them to reciprocate wht you have don, or else you may end up crying. But this is hard, this wht happend to me. The reason why I am still on the process of convincing myself to take my back of to those so called "friends" I feel I have to stay away from them and close any communication with them...I was really hurt. If I have done wrong, I guess it is because I learned to love them all and expect them also to do the same to me.