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I thought I was in love when I was 16 years old. I met a guy who was polite and sweet and in teenage boys that was hard to find. Anyway everything was perfect with this guy he treated me so well at first. I thought that this was the guy for me so I gave up my virginity to him. Things were still great for quite a while we moved in together we had candle lit dinners at home romantic bubble baths together and you would never she the one without the other. So we thought it was time to try and start a family just remember I was 16 and naive. We tried for several months and the longer it took the more distant he got. No more candle lit dinners and you wouldn't see one with the other we would always be apart and at that point I was hurt and I begged and begged for sometime with him. He kept promising tomorrow babe we'll hang out I promise. Needless to say that morning never came he always made sure he was up and gone before I got up and he was heavy into weed. So about the 5 month of our relationship I told him I couldn't do it anymore and it was over. But after those words came out i felt my stomach drop and I wished I could take those words back but it was too late he already had his eye on a younger girl anyway. At this point we were living with his stepdad. Any way he moved back in with his mom and his step dad let me stay there we got along great (RIP GLENN MORRISON)so anyway he started to go after this girl and she didn't really want anything to do with him at first but finally she gave in and slept with him at his stepdads house with me upstairs that really broke my heart especially the fact he didn't wear protection so I thought he was trying to make a baby with anyone. So I started the begging process he finally gave in and told me he'd take me back but only for 12 hours and at that time still 16 and all thought 12 hours was better than none. Until the 12 hours were up and it was really over again. We stopped talking after that. By my 17th birthday I made myself alot of new friends and went on alot of dates and my ex started to get a bit jealous that somebody else wanted me and trust me at that point alot of dudes wanted me. He especially got jealous with the ones who had cars lol.Anyway I started to miss him all over again when I met another guy he was just walking down the street comin home with his siter after a night at the bar he was crying and swearing alot his girlfriend just broke up with him he walked right pass me cursin up a storm and he stopped looked back and called out for me (hey miss pardon my language it was very ignorant of me to say those things in front of a lady I am sorry) My heart skipped a beat what a gentlemen and not to mention he was hott he started to walk away but I couldn't just let the guy walk away with at least getting his name. So as the story goes on we swapped information and talked for hours on end. We hooked up. That didn't last more than 2 weeks he moved back to Toronto he took his ex back. My ex in the meantime got his friends to call me and tell me he was with an ex of his and he wanted to double date at this point I pretended josh was still around and agreed a couple weeks went by and I had made so many excuses why Jos couldn't come and so fourth so I finally asked my ex if we could go grab a bite to see if we could be civil at least for this double date that was never really going to happen. We hung out and talked for a while and he said he wanted to kiss me but couldn't because he was with somebody else the kiss me part was music to my ears and I grabbed him and we kissed needless to say he broke up with his girlfriend an hour later and we were back together. Things were back to the way they were the very first time we got together but yet I was none the wiser I ended up pregnant and yes we were trying well things changed and ended up breaking up and he kicked me out on the streets at 3 months pregnant. So here I am 20 years old with a 2 and a half year old he has only seen her once and pretends he cares when he has a new girlfriend. She doesn't live with me because I knew I couldn't keep her with the life I was living to keep afloat. I am 20 now with a fiance and a 2 month old baby and I couldn't be happier. The hate for my ex is gone but so is the love..... I don't know if that was anything to what you wanted to hear but it was the best I have