I wish I can protect my kids from all unhappy events
By ch88ss
@ch88ss (2271)
United States
April 9, 2008 11:20am CST
I don't know how to be a great mom anymore.
Yesterday I got home and it was horrible.
My son was emotional and cried, my little girl was a mess herself.
She has speech every week, and Tuesday was the day. She refused to cooperate. Then my husband just had enough of her silence and then crying because she refused to go home. It was horrible, he said some mean threats to her and that scared her so she stopped crying and followed him home instead. But my son who was 12 heard that and gave his father a piece of his mind. My son told his father he should not scare my daughter that way.
I did not see anything wrong with that, but my husband who was more embarrassed and his eagle and pride took over overreacted. He was already fustrated with his little girl, now he was lectured in front of other adult by a 12 year old.
I guess there are a only a few who can forget their pride and learn to accept their mistakes and be taught. It looks like my husband is not one of them.
Needless to say, my husband said some things and also made my son cried.
I hate what happened and I blame myself. Why was I not there for the speech, if I was none of this would have happened. But how can I afford to take time off from work, if I bring in the larger income for the family.
I recently posted a discussion about my dissapointment and broken heart about my husband. each day I find this to be true and harder to forget when he does things like this.
Not to mention he wants very little to do with the actual raising of the kids. But I feel he needs and work hard and understanding the kids feelings and emotions are fragile.
He leaves all the homework duty, and caring for them for me to do when he also leave the responsibility of the bringing the larger income with me too.
I do admit he works hard too, but he is also comfortable where he is at and has no desire to move up on the corpoarate ladder. He is not motivated to improve his earnings at all.
Enough fussing, thank you for reading my post. I feel better and can start my morning now without feeling awful.
I wish I could do something to make my son feel better. He is going through some emotional time. I fear he may be falling into depression. Too bad, my husband does not understand that even a child can have stress related to school, peer pressure and friends etc.
2 responses
@edgyk8inmomma (2157)
• United States
2 May 08
My heart aches for you dear. It sounds like the situation you are in is really tough. I don't have answers for you, but know there is another out here in cyber world that cares, and will say prayers for you. Just love your kids with all that you have. Help them to understand that everyone behaves differently under stss, and just because dad might pop off at the mouth, doesn't mean he doesn't love them and care for them. My sister goes through a lot of what you explained, and I tell her the same thing. Its hard when dad doesn't want to buck up and take some of the burden. I truly feel for you, and pray your situation improves in some way.
~peace and blessings~
@ch88ss (2271)
• United States
2 May 08
Hi Edgy,
Thanks for the support.
It sure is hard because naturally I want to protect my kids at all cost.
I hope my husband will keep his end of the bargain and be patient and more involved and responsive to their needs, and emotional needs too.
My husband believes he is doing his job by bringing home the money and making sure the kids have a place to stay and food on the table.
I want him to know that food on the table is not enough when they are going to hate you becuase you neglect their feelings and other needs.
I also hate to see my kids growing up believing money is more important instead of the family.
Thank you again for taking the time to read my post and your sincere support.
@edgyk8inmomma (2157)
• United States
2 May 08
You are very welcome:)
Its a hard position to be a dad. We will never understand it. But it seems they think that as long as they are providing, they are doing what they should (for the most part to all you very active and involved dads).
Anyway, for some reason, like men are wired differently than women) men see the here and now, while we see down the road. Right now it is important to make sure the bills are paid, bellies are full, and there's a proper roof over the heads. They really don't get it (unless they've been there before) that time is just as important to the kids as provision. Maybe you could encourage a daddy daughter date or something to that effect, or a boys Saturday out to a race, ball game, or fishing. Maybe a little encouragement to your husband to spend some quality one on one time with each of them will do some good. Even if it only happens occasionally, these memories will last for your children, and that little bit of extra effort will plant his love deep within them. I say encourage, because sometimes we women tend to nag or try to convince, this will only make it seem like a chore. Try to find something that both of them would enjoy together, and maybe conveniently have something else planned with just you and the other one. Just a suggestion:)
@dragonfly242 (1060)
• Bahamas
9 Apr 08
Wow ch88ss, your cup really is full.I think your husband could have handled the situation better, especialy seeing that your daughter has special needs.Maybe if you were there it would not have happened, but you can't be everywhere. You should be able to rely on your husband, after all he's a parent too. I guess your husband is frustrated and this is the only way he knows how to respond.Maybe you could take your son out just you and him, you could tell him that you're proud of the way he defended his sister.That might help in making him feel better.
@ch88ss (2271)
• United States
15 Apr 08
Hi Dragonfly,
I wish there is time for that. I agree my husband needs to clean up his act and learn to handle the stress much better.
I find myself in the same cycle all over again.
When my husband starts losing his patient I have to warned him that he cannot do that etc. Like a whole long talk and give him the silence treatment and then he starts doing well again. He is patient etc with the kids. As soon as things get better, he turns around and loses his patient again.
I don't know what to do. I sometimes wonder if I just divorce him and at least I have one less person to worry about.
by the way if you have a chance visit my triond writing sites. I have new ones up. I plan to write a poem to be submitted soon (a week or two) about my sister.
www.triond.com/users/wonders



