Isolation

United States
April 23, 2008 12:41am CST
Isolation was always something I envied. I remember seeing certain musicians I know who would hole themselves up and get so much work done, and I was jealous of the fact that they were more focused on increasing their workload and intelligence by spending more time alone, deep in thought, in work. Skip ahead 5 months, I'm finally getting paid for this music stuff, and isolation has hit me full force. Isolation is not healthy. "You don't know yourself till you are alone". Sometimes humans don't really need to know themselves, but if you are put in this situation and sucked into isolation because of work, life changes and perception of time and the days gets completely warped. Everyday is the same routine. Wake up, cook breakfast, check the news, and work on my computer for 10-12 hours making sounds. Due to the pressure of making a piece of music that will have a legacy, the pressure becomes overwhelming. It's not worth it going out and wasting time "socializing" when I could be at home getting more work done in order to make more money. Sometimes accomplishing a dream doesn't mean you are going to be happy. It can make you completely miserable.
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Peekie
@Peekie (16)
• United States
23 Apr 08
Well when I was growing up I was 'alone' in a way. I didnt come out of my bedroom much (I got 'homeschooled') My parents were getting divorced and my brother had just went off to college. My Best friend moved away. I was in the houes alone all day when my dad went off to work. I liked it. I really did. I didnt want to see anyone or get to know anyone. Isolation is a strange thing. It can be good it can be bad. It really depends on how you take it. It seems to me the situation you are in right now is just a bit lonely. You need to get out and explore a little bit. It may inspire you. Not only that. I dont know if isolation really is the way to get to know yourself. I think you are most yourself when you have people around you. When there are people around you can express yourself. You can be you. When you are alone you have no way of really...seeing yourself. You can only see what you think you are. Humans are a social being. I think part of being human is being social. I'm not saying you have to be a babbling fool. I think just having a few close friends to express yourself is enough. Even if it is just once in a while. Its nice to let things out, joke, laugh, smile, cry. Whatever it may be its being you. Its letting you get yourself out in the open. Seems like you have gotten up in the work too much. Money isnt everything. Also...the thing about dreams. That's what they are. Dreams are wonderful amazing happy awesome things. Then when you get down to it...its not what you expected. If you are realizing its not what you want. Maybe try something else? Life is what you make it. Sorry for babbling on lol