I just don't know if I can get back up again!

@raydene (9874)
United States
April 27, 2008 9:15pm CST
I am hurting and am not so sure I can get right back up from this. Two things happened today. My son Micah and 2 of his friends capsized their canoe on Lake George and were in the water for 30+ minutes when a boat happened to see them. The water is 38 degrees. They were treated for hypothermia and released. At the same time Micah was in the water my cousin's son was shooting himself.He was gone when they found him. Jason grew up in my house as much as my boys grew up in my cousin Wanda's house. I just feel like I dodged a bullet but it hit Wanda and her husband and other son. "But for the grace of God go I" I have struggled back from alot in the past few years but I don't know if I can from this! I just don't have it. If you are believer pray for me please..I will need your prayers. This time I may be broken beyond repair! xxx
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@mummymo (23707)
28 Apr 08
Mom you already know you have my prayers - and those of the rest of the family too! Your Grandwees were really concerned about you when I told them what had happened as was your son in law. I meant what I said in that mail - I so wish I could do something to help . I just want to wrap my arms around you and let you cry all the pain away! Love you xxxx
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@weemam (13377)
28 Apr 08
You will survive pal as you are stronger than you know , You have come through too much to give up now , You keep your family together with your love , they need you as much as you need them , you are in a dark place at the moment but you will come through it , God Bless you sweetheart , as always I will pray for you and yours xx
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@winterose (39893)
• Canada
28 Apr 08
hon you are not broken beyond repair, you are broken now, but you can mend and you will mend because your family needs you. It was not Micah's time to leave this world, for that you can rejoice and not feel guilty. Be there for your cousin now she needs you. I will be praying for the healing of your entire family.
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• United States
28 Apr 08
Raydene my friend, I am so sorry to hear what you have been through today. ((hugs))
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@linda345 (2661)
• Canada
28 Apr 08
Oh Raydene, the tears are streaming down my face as I read this. You have been through so much. I am glad your son is ok. You probably know it is only a week ago my son tried to commit sucide and the rope broke saving his life. I will pray for you and your cousins. That could have been me last week. Give yourself a big hug from me. I wish I was there to give you one myself. Know all your friends in the mylot community are pulling for you.
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@ellie333 (21018)
29 Apr 08
Oh Raydene oh I really do not know what to say but my thoughts and prayers will be with you and your family at this tragic time. I know from recent discussions that you have suffered so much lose and this loss of such a young life must seem just too much at this moment for you to bear but I will pray for strength for you also. God bless. Ellie :D
@Hatley (164170)
• Garden Grove, California
28 Apr 08
raydene you have had such an awful lot of bad things happen to you and your family in a short time so you will have to give yourself lots of time to heal. i am sending my prayers for you to feel better and be strong enough to get through all this and I am sure the other mylotters will do the same thing.so keep your chin up and know we all care.I don't knopw why it is but the bad things in our lives always seem to come in clusters so now maybe you have got the bad out of the way and he good will be back into your life soon.
• United States
28 Apr 08
omg i'm sorry for your loss i will keep your family in my paryers and add them to the payer list at my church as for moving on and dealing with such a devastating thing my only suggestion is going to god with it. good luck god bless you
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@carolscash (9498)
• United States
28 Apr 08
God Bless you and your family! You certainly need all the prayers that you can get right now. I am sure glad that your son is alright as you could have lost him too. Please tell your cousin that our thoughts and prayers are with her at this horrible time in her life.
@BYOLA2871 (4371)
• South Africa
28 Apr 08
this seems too much at the same time,i really feel for you but please dont let this get to you too much ,try the best you can to get back on your feet,you already have my prayers and i pray that God will help you ,it is never over,how are the boys doing ?take care God will strenghten you
• United States
28 Apr 08
My prayers go out to you. At times like this, there is nothing anyone can say that really helps. Words don't fill the void we suffer, but knowing that you have friends who love you and will be by your side means more than anything. Everyone one says that time heals all wounds, but God heals all wounds and will comfort you more than anyone. Please hang in there and trust in God, he will hold you up when you feel your worst. God bless you and your family.
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@Darkwing (21586)
28 Apr 08
Raydene, my special friend, you have suffered a lot of heartache and pain in the past year, and I feel for you, believe me! BUT... you can get through this! You have the strength and the resiliance... you've proved that. Cry... kick out... scream... shout at the world. Get rid of your anger and despair, and you'll feel a lot better. You'll find your way again, my friend. This year has been a nightmare for a few of us, so far, but we can get through it, by holding each others' hands, holding our heads high, being here for one another, and fighting off all the negatives that are being thrown at us!! (((((HUGGGGGGG))))) You'll certainly be in my thoughts and prayers, and I will send you all the energies I can muster, that you find strength and comfort in others, and find your way back onto your path again. Keep the faith, my dear friend. We are all here for you, if you need us! Brightest Blessings that the eternal light find its way onto your path and guide you through the darkness. xxxxxxx
• Malaysia
28 Apr 08
Life always has its ups and downs and sometimes the down-side of it makes it so difficult for us to get up again, but with Gods grace, love and confidence, and by believing that no rivers to too wide to cross and no mountains too high too climb, I am very sure th at you will get back up on your two feet again. And during the days where you are still in the process of doing so, I am sure that God will carry you though. Hang in there and stay strong. We all pray for you.
@gabs8513 (48708)
• United Kingdom
28 Apr 08
Sweet I am so sorry to read this and they are in my thoughts as that is so awful You will be able to pick up I know you will Like me you always come out of it eventually it is hard and it seems we won't but your Friends will help you I do hope that your Son is ok now and has got over his accident Love you xxxx
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• Bahamas
28 Apr 08
Hi raydene. I'm sorry to hear about the tragic things that are befalling you.My grammy use to say trouble comes in three's. But when we think that we cannot go on God steps in and brings you peace, this i believe.There was a time that i suffered the loss of my mom,dad,and premature son all within a short space of time and i was a basket case. I found comfort in prayers, it worked for me and i know that it can work for you so with this belief i'll be praying that God gives you strenght in this your time of need, and that he guids your footsteps to the light of peace.Just have faith that theres nothing broken that prayers can't fix.{{hugs}}
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@faith210 (11232)
• Philippines
28 Apr 08
Hi raydene! I really don't know what to say dear friend. You and your family have my prayers. Please be strong. I will always be here for you dear friend. Take care my friend. My sincerest condolence to you, Wanda and her family.
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@BarBaraPrz (28122)
• St. Catharines, Ontario
28 Apr 08
Oh dear, dear Raydene... my sympathies. With everything you've been through you should know that you will get through this. What's that saying about gold being tested in fire? You are a shining example. Keep shining. @};--
@gkthegr8 (163)
• India
28 Apr 08
I really feel so sorry for you.. I'll pray for you from my heart..
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@lingli_78 (12834)
• Australia
28 Apr 08
i'm so sorry to hear about what happen to you today... i know how hard it is for you to accept the fact... i will definitely pray for you... please be strong and keep your faith in God... He never leaves nor forsaken you... He is with you during your darkest times in your life... and He will turn the bad events into something good in your life according to His will... take care, be strong and God Bless you...
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@Polly1 (12646)
• United States
28 Apr 08
Oh sweetheart I am so very sorry for what has happened today. I am so very thankful for you that Micah is ok. My heart breaks for you and your cousins family for what they are going thru. You and your family will be in my prayers. I wish I knew some magic words for you. I do send you many cyber hugs your way. Oh hun, I am so sorry.
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