I was drunk, humiliated and made awful crack and the whole world knew that!

Well from what I have read you got yourself into a sticky situation. I'm not pointing this as a bad direction. Yes you were drunk and you spoke to a man that you have liked a long time. You told him how you honestly felt there is nothing wrong with that. You I think just feel you said way to much in front of alot of people when you should have waited for a better time to tell him but now it's to late to turn back the whole thing. You shouldn't feel bad about what you said or did you were expressing your feelings. You shouldn't hide from it either for it will only make things worse. I know this from experience for I have been in your shoes. I had a crush on this guy who was alot younger than I and I would go down to this one bar that I knew that he hung out at. I would shoot pool and drink and watch his every move. This guy made my heart skip a beat he was cute and I wanted so bad for him just to be like that to me. One night which was the last time I saw him I was feeling no pain had quite of few drinks in me and ya he was hanging w/ his buddies but I didn't care. I walked over to him he was at the pool table I stood next to him while he was waiting for his turn to play. He turned to say hi then turned his focus right back to the table I kept looking at him. It was his turn fineally to play and I watched in aww and I think one of his buddies saw my reaction for his friend said "what's wrong w/ you are you in love w/ him?" I was so embarrassed for not only did his friend say this but the guy I had a major crush on looked up at his friend then at me then looked back to take his shot. I walked away wanting to hide. I felt aweful. I ended up going out side and standing on the ramp to the entrance of the bar. I stood there for like 10 minutes and I hear the door open and this person standing behind me I didn't turn around for I didn't want to know who was behind me. Then I hear the fimilar voice of the guy I had a crush on say "you ok?" I said "yah" he said "what was that about back there?" I said "don't know your friend being stupid" he said " is it true?" i said "is what true?" he said are you head over heels over me and I'm now just finding out?" I said "yah" my throat was closeing up my eyes started to fill w/ tears and he put his hand on my shoulder and told me to turn around I did. He said "it's nice that you like me the way you do but nothing can ever become of us for there is another girl I just started seeing and I'm in love w/ her I'm sorry if you feel hurt by me telling you this but I'll always your friend ok?" I said "ok" he pulled me to him and hugged me and I broke into tears in his arms. He then let go of me and said "it's late you should go home and sleep off some of those drinks in ya" I watched him walk back into the bar and I slowly while crying walked home. I never saw him after that for he moved away w/ this girl and a couple of years later his cousin who I work w/ told me he stopped drinking got married to her and has a 1 yr. old daughter w/ her. I've learned that when you drink more than your share you tend to just say about anything as well as do anything. I do hope you forgive yourself for your mistake and know you have learned from it like I have. If you wish to opologize to him for that night do so away from everyone say " listen I'm sorry about the other night I didn't mean to come on to you so strong like I did I know I had a few drinks. I do you like you and if I can start over I would like to ask you if you'd like to hang out sometime?" see where that get's you for you might find it's worth the while. I truely wish you the best of luck w/ this situation. I'm glad I came across your topic and was able to hopefully help. Take care and smile.

I feel Drinking is really a addiction and not easy to quit all of sudden. But good thing is there are many rehabilition center for helping to get rid of these habits. to make a great change in life..I dont drink but i helped my friends and few of them quit addiction to drinks