Church

@lucy02 (5016)
United States
May 12, 2008 11:21am CST
I have been going to the same church for about 4 years now. I have never felt really comfortable here. My husband recently has been feeling like he wants to change churches. My mom, who is 81 y/o and has physical and mental health problems, is happy here and doesn't want to go anywhere else. I don't want to pull her out of church. On the other hand I would really love to have a "church family". One of the things that bothers me is that my mom has bipolar schizoid affective disorder. She got off her meds and we had to have her hospitalized to get her back on them. She has been mad ever since but seems to be better now. During this time she said a lot of bad things about my husband and me and I know some of them she told her Sunday School class. They weren't true but I wonder if they believed her. Some of the women in that class acted kind of cool toward me for awhile. Also it bothered me that only one person in the class called us to check on her while she was out though she was out a long time. A couple of people told me they were told she had been out a while and I'm fairly sure they were talking among themselves about it. It sure would have been nice to have had someone to talk to during this time. If someone in church dies or is severely ill we don't know about it unless we read it in the paper. What would you do if you were me? Also are all churches this way? I love God. He has been very good to me. I have thought about just staying home and worshipping here but as I said I want a "church family". We've struggled a lot with mom's mental illness over the years and she doesn't want anything much to do with her family now, won't talk to her sister. I don't know why, just something she has imagined that her sister did I guess.
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@AmbiePam (85492)
• United States
13 May 08
I would recommend looking for a different church. At my church we go out of our way to greet new people, and although we occasionally have problems, what church family doesn't? And that is the key word, family. Our church is a family. If someone's loved ones die, food is taken over to their house so they don't have to worry about cooking. I've been to churches that don't care about others. The ones that you know are talking about you behind your back, yet they smile to your face. You and your husband's need for a church that you feel comfortable in is paramount. You need that strength and support, especially with taking care of you mother. I can't imagine how difficult that is. And I hope that you can find that support. Christians need each other. There is a whole world of people out there who can scratch our eyes out. A church should be a haven from that. I wish you blessings in dealing with this situation. Any church would be completely blessed to have you with them. : )
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@lucy02 (5016)
• United States
13 May 08
Thank you for the response and kind words Pam. I would love to find a church like that. We didn't go to church growing up and I started a little over 10yrs ago. I've yet to find a real church home though. I'm not going to give up though. As you said a church family is a blessing.
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@jillbeth (2705)
• United States
12 May 08
Not all churches are that way, but probably the many of them are! If the women of the church are judging you, they are not showing true Christian love toward you. None of us is perfect, and only God should be our judge. And if they are talking about you behind your back, that is gossip, and that is much a sin as stealing or lying. It sounds to me like you need to find another church, one where the congregants shows more concern and brotherly love for one another. So you will have to decide which is more important to you: to have a "church" family in a church where you feel judged and excluded, or to attend a church where you feel welcome, included, and not judged? Is there another church member who would be willing to pick your mom up and take her home again on Sunday? I wish you the best in finding a church where you feel like you belong. In Jesus' letters to the seven churches (in Revelations), only two received his praise. I doubt our modern churches would have any better odds. It may take some searching, but don't give up! Pray that He will lead you to the right place.
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@lucy02 (5016)
• United States
12 May 08
Thanks Jillbeth, I have been praying but maybe not hard enough. I do so want to find a real "church family". I have thought about seeing if one of the church ladies would mind picking her up. There is one next door to us but mom is also mad at her for some unknown reason, again something she imagined. She hears voices and gets mad at people for reasons I guess the voices are telling her. Its so sad. She is doing a little better though.
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