a meaning of life to ME...

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I watched the movie "CLICK" and I cant help but cry,, ok let’s face it,, I cry easy, cant help it I guess I am born this way. Anyway what I love about this movie is it’s very factual. Most of the time we tend to ignore or neglect the ones we love, a significant day or moment, food, air, or just basic stuff coz we feel it will always be there. We usually don’t noticed how things changed and when we do, sad but true, it is always at the last minute when there is no longer other way but to accept the sad truth. The movie makes me miss my mom, at times I wish I have the power to stop the hand of time and just spend lots of time with her, just like the way I am when I was a kid, let her feel that im there and will never grow sit right next to her and just hold her hand. I know most people see her differently and I cant blame them coz what they see is real… but in a loving heart,, you can go deeper than what meets the eye… see the roots why she becomes like that, why she do things the way she do and a lot of why’s that she can only explain to herself but in my humble heart I do understand her and still love her the way she is and will always will. Most of us take things for granted,, and I for one used to be like this until I reached a tragic that changed my life and my views regarding life and love. I am more aware now that we have to value what we have and live our lives in a manner that there wil be no tomorrow. When he died, I felt for the first time regret,, I never do… but I did that time,,, there are so many things that I wanna say, I want him to feel, I want to know him better, I want to say I love him too and that he is wrong that I don’t feel the same way,, that there is no need for him to cry no more… There are so many what if’s left unsaid and done,,, I cried so much… since then I told myself I will treasure whatever I have and will let the one I love know and truly feel that I love them,,, without hesitations,, without me expecting anything in return… just me purely giving whatever I can coz I want to,, coz I love to.. Coz I know I may not be there for long or they may not be there for long… As I lay in bed, I think of how I live my life for a day,, if I tell my man that I love him so much,, that I message my mom and say I love her, sms my sister goodnight, hug and kiss my dog who always look at me intently and just love to smooch me all the time… I feel bless for whatever I have, I honestly don’t want to miss a thing,, I wanna enjoy whatever is in there coz it may not be there tomorrow. The movie touches me in a way that I cry longer than normal… it is so true,,, it is something that is very real but we don’t realized most of it not unless we are bumped by it then we think about it and then go back to our normal selves again… When was the last time you say “I LOVE YOU” to someone who means so much to you? When was the last time you hug someone? When was the last time you really listen, I mean really listening…, to someone when they want to talk to you? When was the last time you talk to your kids, husband, friend, parents, love ones? When was the last time you sit and just enjoy the beauty of nature? The senses that you have? The small things that you have that you often take for granted? There are so many things that you can really do,, that brings so much happiness to yourself and to others… Life is not all about money or how much you have… It is more about… WHAT YOU ARE…