I still love my ex. Should I leave my girlfriend for my ex?

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When I woke up this morning, the first thing that came into my mind was I have to pay my internet connection. It was my first billing for my internet connection. My ex girlfriend is working at the office where I am going to pay my bill. Undeniably, I was so excited to see her again. I took a good shower, brush my hair, and splash myself with cologne. I went out of the apartment very excited and smiling. When I arrived at the office I started to tremble. But when I checked out the cashier area, she was not there. I don't know how I felt at that time. It's like am relieved because she was not there because I stopped trembling. I also feel sad because she was not there and I will not se her. Then I heard someone said, "Everybody's out for lunch. They will bback in a minute." My blood starts to rush again as if my heart is going to burst. After five minutes of waiting, she arrived. I did not looked at her because I was really so shy and conscious. One of the costumer service person came to me and get my bill and my money then shehand it to my ex girlfriend. I said to myself, "She's going to call me if she's done encoding everything."After three minutes of waiting, she called the guard, hand my receipt withoutsaying anything, went out or the door behind her and slammed it. It was so unethical. She shouldn't have done it bacause Iamher costumer. She should treat her job professionally. She should not mix her personal life with her work. I was so embarrassed because normally the cashier would call the costumer's name after they encode the payment and hand the receipt to the costumer. She's still mad at me and I feel really bad. I never wanted to leave her but I have to protect her that's why I did it. I have this girlfriend for eight years. She cheated on my and we broke up. I met the girl. We became good friends. We both fell in love with each other. We are really both connected and we really love to be together all the time. We have no differences. We talk about things that we both like. We have the same like in many things and we never fight. My girlfriend found out that I am with her. She told me that if I am not going to stop my relationship with the girl, she's going to tell the boss of the girl to fire her. The boss of the girl is my girlfriend's aunt. sadly, I have to let her go. I called her and explained to her everything. She said it was really hard for her to take everything because she cannot even talk to anyone about what's happening to her. Until now I really feel guilty but I can't just let my girlfriend ruin her job. But I really love hwr. And it makes me cry everytime I remember her. I want her to forgive me but I think it is next to impossible. I know that she loved me that's why she is really bitter right now. Because if she doesn't, she will not feel bad about our separation. I kow I am an as* because I went back to my girlfriend when I broke up with her. I just can't leave alone. My girlfriend promised me that she will never cheat. I love them both. I don't know how to trust my girlfriend because she cheated on me. I don't know if my ex girlfriend will still love me because I hurt her and she's still amd at me. I don't know what to do. I really feel so sad.:0(