I really don't like this feeling....it's killing me... / myLot

Philippines

June 5, 2008 8:02am CST

somehow i knew what was happening in my life is the thing i don't deserve..it just shows the unfairness of this world..this feeling is hurting me and as the days goes by i know i wasn't getting any stronger..its weakening me..i am now feeling more down than ever..everyday i feel so lonely and i cannot seem to appreciate people around me..i just wanna be with just one person but my husband..whenever he goes away to work and leave me for a week i cry..i felt like i'm gonna be alone forever..its depressing and always find myself asking why does this thing has to happen to me..of all the people in this world why me? i don't think i deserve to have this cancer thats causing me this hurt..doesn't He think that i've gone through enough to have another burden like this? i'm lost and i'm starting ask again the why's of life... have you ever felt like this in your life? if you did..how did you cope up with it?

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kun2349

@kun2349 (23381)

• Singapore

6 Jun 08

Be more optimistic.. JUst as when u think that your cases is the most miserable, think again, there are ple whom are much more miserable than u.. At least, u still have got your husband.. At leats he din leave u when u needed him the most and he definitely din leave u alone.. U have frenz, talk to them..

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@kerriannc (4279)

• Jamaica

5 Jun 08

I used to feel this way when my mother die, always crying. My dear having a sickness not the end of the world. I am HIV positive but I think positive thoughts. I do not make this bother me. Each day God give me the breathe of Life and I give thanks. Do not make this sickness put you in depression. Read books, talk with other persons are have your sickness and you will see the positiveness in it. Just remember that your husband has to work and paid the bills do not be too clinging to him but after a while he is going to start feel pressure. When you think positiveness, your life will be positive o.k. Read your bible and pray. See if there is a chatroom with your sickness and go there. This is what strengthen me. My chatroom and the MYLOT Family. In these chatroom they don't think about the sickness what they does is talk uplifting topic and after leaving you will feel o.k. All the best.

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jer31558

@jer31558 (3683)

• United States

11 Jun 08

My friend, I am truly sorry to hear of what you are going through. There have been times in my life when it seemed that the whole world was against me. The thing that helped me the most in these times is to look back over my life at the things I have already come through. That tends to give me strength and determination for what I am going through at that time.

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