I have 4 sisters? Since when?

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Okay I have known for a while that my biological father had a daughter after me but I didn't know he had 4 after me! My "sister" the oldest at 18 years old contacted me for the first time ever. Apparently she found one of my "update" letters to my father. He and I don't speak but I do keep him updated on my life through letters every few years. So she sent me a text message and said she knew about me and wanted to get to know me if I felt the same way to call her. After crapping my pants I texted her back that we could talk later in the evening. (Not saying this part to her but I was thinking ...) I needed some time, some time to think what am was going to say to her. Some time to think about if I wanted a relationship with her. What was I going to tell her when she asked why. The talking was pretty easy but it was hard to answer questions because she is close to "our" dad and I really don't have any thing nice or good to say about him. I seen her myspace and wow we are definatly from the same genes. I can't get over looking at some one that looks so much like me. And after talking to her we are 2 of a kind. My big issue is what do I call her. I mean yeah biologically shes my sister but I don't know her. I don't feel any kind of love for her. She is going to be a lot to handle I can already see that. I just don't know what to do. Have you ever found a sibling? Or long lost relative? What did you do? How did you react? How long should I wait till I actually meet her? She wants to meet me now. I'm not ready for it. Should I be? Should I be welcoming her with open arms? I feel crappy being so stand - offish but its all so weird for me. Whats your opinion on this - any advice will be appreciated. Ask me questions if you want I will get back to you.