Definitely For Nova

Well honey as you know I spoke to her earlier and she is fine. As soon as we finished talking on skype she rang again and is even better - in fact she is starving and looking forward to something to eat and a coffee! lol That is such a good sign - I can't remember the last time she felt really hungry! Hugs xxx

Oh it's such good news that her appetite is coming back. A whole new world for her to explore! LOL I wish I could cook her a really special meal! Well - when I get there I will and you'll be hosting it, so I hope you can share your kitched! LOL

Thanks mummy. Listen sweets, if you get any news about gabs during the week, you WILL email me won't you? I'm so worried about her and praying so hard my head hurts.

Yes, I guess they are. Especially when looking back at the older ones. I'd like to hear your story skinny. I just hope you are ok.

LOL Scoop!! That was funny, I needed that. As far as life right now, where should I start. You guys both saw my Van discussion so that got the ball rolling. Let me say, that I feel things very deeply most of the time. It pretty much is in every facet of my life, it's just the way I am. While most of the time, it's a great way to be when hurt comes along, it's not easy being me. One of the things I'm passionate about is music. I equate beautiful (and not so beautiful) things in my life to songs. Maybe it's weird but it's just another part of me. I'm a Taurus and that might explain it. The whole art thing. So it's another issue of having to go somewhere by myself that is harder for me to swallow. I came to terms with Van and I'm going for sure. I'm also going to see Bob Dylan with my parents- very excited about that one too. But this week, there is another show in town and it's Glen Hansard from the movie Once. Our movie, my guy and I. He is the modern day Van but possibly more passionate if that is possible. The songs and that movie are very special to me and I thought they were to my guy too. Guess not, because yet again I will go by myself. I thought he would be so excited being a musical soul and all. I'm not sure what kind of issue it is this time. I can't talk to him because I just cry so I shut my phone off. It just doesn't seem to matter if I get hurt to him anymore and I'm wondering why. It just isn't like him. I'm very sad, burned out from working, I worked 5 straight days until the wee hours of the night. I'm tired and was looking for some comfort and it isn't there. I will get over it again, I guess. But I think that somehow my relationship isn't as important to my SO as I thought it was. If you girls don't know who Glen Hansard is, here's a link of him covering a Van Morrison tune. He also has some utterly sad songs but I can't listen to those right now. I'm just sad right now is all. Thanks so much for being concerned and caring, which also got me crying... Love you girls and Scoopy! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P4qEXbLuBbo

Skinny, that comment makes me wonder if you're ok too. Please share, darling. Let us help.

Thanks momma. I'll be posting another one soon. That nova sure knows how to encourage people! LOL

I have writings going back to when I was 8 or 9. It's always amazing to read them through from the earliest to the most current. I can SEE the progession of my development as a person in them. It's fascinating. Especially since, so many 'themes' in my thought process and form of expression are consistent through the years. I think my belief system and attitude to life was formed very very young and has stayed solid as I grew and matured. Freud and Jung would have LOVED me! LOL

I used to write short stories when I was a kid, and when I survived puberty, I started writing blank verse poems as I can't rhyme to save my life. Most of my poems are 20 years old and more and look so juvenile to me, now that I've found a voice in prose. And no writer really likes what they write until they've experienced real acclaim. So no worries P1ke - YOU my man, are a writer whether you want to believe it or not. And not every good writer has to churn out novels or books by the dozen to be considered a writer either. Your last "buying a pub" piece blew me away - literally! I have found another poem though that my discussion with nova brought to mind when we were discovering a love of Metaloaf (the singer) in common that I'm going to post for her - so stay tuned for more of my juvenile musings. lol

I shall wait with baited breath and Annie will meet her man in the next 24 hours!!

Forgot my manners there. Thank you Sparky for your kind comments. I struggle. I write stuff, but everyone else's looks so much better crafted. Still, good or no, I shall struggle one with "our" story. XX

Thank you peter! May I ask what you're smokin' in your pipe? Will you share? LOL Sorry - I just love your user name and couldn't resist! ROFL Welcome to the lot!

One day Darkwing you and I are going to sit down and write a travelogue of land and heart together! With your descriptive powers and my poetic touch, we'll have a best seller!

Yes I did write it. I used to write a lot of poems when I was very young and uncertain of myself. They helped me find my writer's voice. I don't write so many anymore.

You're welcome. I've spent the last hour reading my book of poems of which this is one. And you are right. It is a reflection of the younger me, and perhaps that's what I'm looking to recapture - that freshness, that hope, that world of possibilities. And you are also right - she is still with me, still part of me - older, hopefully wiser, definitely more mature, but still ME! Now how cool is that - and it's you that's made me realize it. I do so love you too!