what did i do i love him but he does not love me

Love must be, by definition, a good influence on your life. In the case your describe, you are being needy, clingy, or self-defeating. This is not love. Love is deeper, truer, and richer. You need to love yourself before you can expect anyone else to be a true lover for you. "In order to say, 'I love you' first you must be able to say the I." In essence, you have to know who you are, what's important to you, what you need, and what you have to give. Love should be a balanced exchange of energy, neither jealous, possessive, needy, or selfish. You can do better, but first you have to look into your soul and say to yourself that you are a good person who deserves love. If you can't say this to yourself in a believable manner, then you have to swear off love until you can undergo sufficient self-improvement to be able to do this. Women, particularly, are subject to many abuses. Some are foistered upon them by a man's angry hand. Some by a hurtful voice, tone, or spirit. Others are placed upon a woman's shoulders and heart by some self-defeating insecurity. Don't let that happen to you. "My live is good, my life is grand, my life is part of a greater plan. I have the heart, I have the will, I face my fears, and I'm standing still." This is a mantra I occasionally repeat to myself in order to strengthen my spirit. You should come up with one of your own which addresses what you need to develop in order to find a meaningful and uplifting love.

You have to come to the realization that this "jerk" is just playing games with your emotions and its time to chunk this "jerk" into the trash bin where he belongs.There are lots of guys in this world so why put up with this so-call love "BS" go and find you someone else.