I'm Looking For The True Friend I've Never Had..Is That You?

it looks as if you are dissapointed with your freindship life.. Look out there are many freinds around you.. you can find a true freind in anyone just your perception helps you.to know who is better for you. You cant pick true friends from a basket just like a good flower from a bunch of flowers. All are good but you need to be choosey.. i am Samir from India 24 years..and its 24 years long since i have understood that all humans are friends..and you got to accept your friends the way they are..coz ..if you fail..then always remember these words or quote from me..just for you..!! When it hurts to looks back and you are scared to look ahead just look beside you..and i will always be there for you...TAke care dear..

Miracle, Your best friend is looking at you in the mirror. It's you....plain and simple."YOU ARE WHAT YOU THINK....HAVING BECOME WHAT YOU THOUGHT" I too have been betrayed, stabbed in the heart, thrown away like I was garbage, and just plain dissed at times. EVEN WHEN I DID MY BEST TO MAKE THAT PERSON LOVE ME, OR JUST LIKE ME.... I have had run- ins with the Devil, and there are a lot of them out there....yet still, with all my might, I get up and I move on... It is not a search at all it is more like " Nature". When you look outside your window you see trees and foliage..they are "still", yet they coexist...each one next to each other...sure the roots get tangled, one bows into the other...one sheds more than the other or grows taller..you catch my drift i hope. On the other hand, I do have friends that I know deep inside love me, and it helps that I have a son and granddaughter, and some other family support when I needed it. (the backlash and lecturing is not worth the asking sometimes; from the family) However as a woman that has 'Survived' arguing and messed up parents, that were 'true SURVIVORS of Hitler,' I can tell you, it all boils down to having a great rapport with yourself. No matter what, you are walking hand in hand with you. I have been to counseling, many times and for many points of my life. Had every addiction, fat, thin, loathed myself, and still it came down to me. No one , no therapist , lover or friend, could save me,or make me happy. it was only the realization of" What were my thoughts". how could I recognize those thoughts, why they were there in the first place, racing around in my head, all yakking and fighting at the same time. One day I had an epiphany,and as though standing outside my mind ,I began to catch myself every time I said something negative and slowly change and recreate those thoughts, Into better thoughts... It takes practice; let me tell you.! But it is the only truth there is. Everything is in your head. Like a Dream. I am not a group person, hate organized religion, was a crappy girl scout, and never jibed with many peoples idea's,or even wanted too. i have always seen myself as an 'original' and Women at work usually turned out to be jealous, Gossipy and Back Stabbers.Climbing toward the top, and those at the top were all in fear of losing their jobs; to women like me. You get the picture don't you Miracle? So that said what was left to find....? Only Me! Me, myself,and I. I am what I am. said Popeye the Sailor man! lol(had to throw that one in there.) It is not selfish thinking as some might say, because I am the type that would give the shirt off my back and have... I now recognize the good parts of me, the funny talented, Loving, giving, girl I was born to be. and I try, as best I can, and on a daily basis, after years of effing up, to nurture my own soul, and no, I am not a holy rolling 12 stepper. ( i hate groups remember?) When I figured this out,I found I had friends,People wanted me for a friend, because i was a friend! because I found out I had tolerance of my own weakness's and we all have weaknesses' Take good care of yourself Miracle...be your own best friend you will be happier. Your light will come on inside of you. After all; you are here for a reason. Your soul was born into a body for a reason. God Bless you momma, I hope you write affirmations everyday and take some long walks. Stella