Anybody here felt the "post partum"...after giving birth?

@pinks17 (2192)
Philippines
July 9, 2008 7:38am CST
When I gave birth to my 2nd child..I thought he was not my child.He doesn't look like me nor my ex-husband.I thought our baby was replaced by another moms baby.My first baby actually looks like me,the color..but with the 2nd one I really thought it was a different baby I'm holding though I know my ex-husband was there during my delivery.I had that feeling for about 2 months until my baby boy gained a lot of pounds and that's where I see the resemblance of me and my ex-husband combined to our baby boy...he was about 6.4 lbs. when I gave birth but after 2 months I have to say sorry to my baby boy that I didn't touch him or even carry him all the time bec. I thought he was not mine.I felt guilty that time...really really guilty...so after he gained wait i have to make up for the 2 months I missed of holding him and hugging him.He is already 10 years old and so adorable.No doubt my baby boy came from me...he has my eyes,my smile and he has my ex-husbands nose.
2 responses
@SusanLee (1920)
• United States
9 Jul 08
Those post-partum hormones can be real joy squashers can't they? I was fortunate with all three of my deliveries, I only cried about three days and then it was over. My mom had a horrible time with my baby brother and a woman at our church battled it for two years, yes two years. I'm glad you were able to recover and enjoy your son.
@pinks17 (2192)
• Philippines
9 Jul 08
Actually my son is aware that I had that kind of experience and I know that he knows that I love him so much and not a single doubt about it
• United States
9 Jul 08
I have suffered from this several times. Each time, it took different amounts of time to recover from it, and the symptoms each time were different. With one, I was extremely protective even though it wasn't my first. I called my father crying that they wouldn't give me my baby. You see my husbands family was at the house passing the baby around like he was a new toy. I think that you should forgive yourself and forget about that time. Your son will never know of the trouble you had at first, and it may be an experience you can share with him when he has his own children. Life is to short to regret what we consider to be past transgressions. Enjoy your blessings now, and forget about the past!