I need a Breather...Can I do the breathng here?

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There are times in ones life that people need to take a breather..What I mean to say is something that will help you breath out your problems in life your woes, troubles or whatever else you call it..I believe I need that now. As most of the people here know I have 5 kids all of them are studying. 1 in college taking up HRM; 16 my eldest daughter, My eldest son is in 1st year high school(supposedly 4th year- he dropped his studies 3x already), my 2nd son 10 in Grade 6, My 3rd son 7 in grade 1 (supposedly in Grade 2 now but he didn't want to study last year), my youngest daughter is in Kinder. My Husband is 36 and he is jobless ( a long story if I go through that part), I am currently working 2 jobs both full time counting 17 hours. It has been 2 months now since school started my 2nd son has 9 subjects and I just recently heard that he has only 4 notebooks which was supposed to be 9. He never told me he was lacking notebooks because he knows I don't have money. My youngest needs a red plastic box for her school things. My eldest daughter has borrowed our helpers shoes and now she has worn it out and now my helper needs a shoe as well. My 3rd son told my husband his shoes are broken and he needs a new leather shoes and he was also complaining that he doesn't have any rubber shoes for their Physical education subject. My shoes are worn out as well and starting to give up on me. My husbands nape recently aches a lot and I think he's suffering from high blood, My 2nd child has skin problems and needs to have his teeth fixed as well. Him and my eldest daughter need glasses too because they can't see the board at school anymore. I have 3 friends at my night shift job that lends people money and I have already a loan with each one of them which is paid every pay day. I pay electric bill on the 15th. I have an unpaid water bill, 2 credit cards, Internet (already cut off), telephone bill (already cut off). Yesterday my car broke down. Every end of the month I need to pay my car loan and my eldest daughters tuition. Everyday my kids need money for school food and transportation. And I do need those as well since I go to work. I owe my sisters, my dad, my sister-in-law and some friends money as well. As I said I am working 2 jobs and it has been just 3 weeks since I started my morning job.. call people in Australia who always bad mouth me because I call them and my new Australian boss are a bit rude. The new work is very stressful. Now I am so tired, sickly, sleepy and stressed in having this 2 jobs. I wanted to leave this new one but I need to get extra income to pay for some of my debts because whenever I get my salary nothing is left for us to spend at home. This is way totally depressing. Are this challenges in life? Why is it all coming to me? I am not that strong to take this kind of challenges in life..Has anyone experienced something like this? I do hope it's ok to breath this in here... I just don't know where else to breath it to. I just don't have any close friends to breath this out to..Maybe you guys can lend me an ear on this just so I can breath. This things that are happening in my life is really so depressing and it's just almost blowing my mind off.. Problem after problems are piling and following me wherever I go... I am beginning to lose faith and hope...It's really depressing but a bit of the load went to this discussion because I let it out of me..It's just good to know that I can breath a bit in here..