Glutton for punishment

Hi carolyn, thanks for the rant LOL i am sorry that you are in such situation, i have to say that it is not fair as you seem to be a very wonderful and loving person. like you said, it is more sad knowing that innocent souls are being affected when your intention is to help and be loving in the process. I applaud you for being who you are and for sticking to it. Like you, i am very patient and will always give a few chance TILL i feel that there will be no more chance. i can get and accept a few hard hit because i have to consider not just my own feelings but as well as those innocent one surrounding me. i only behave this way if that is a family member BUT i never let anybody to take advantage of me, no matter how much i care and love that person, if my few chances is not enough then i am willing to let go and move on coz i deserve to be happy and i deserve to respect my self as well. I told my mom that i have put up with all the crap my estrange brother and father did to me and my family and i am done with them. i told her i have considered her feelings for 22 years so i wont feel bad anymore if i close my door and move on in life. i told her that if she dont understand me then that is her problem anymore and i am moving away wether she like it or not coz it is my time to consider my self this time. she respected my decision and i have to say that my life is much much better knowing that i dont have to feel guilt and pain both physically and emotionally in my life. i think the biggest problem in our world is there is someone who likes to take advantage and there is someone who always forgives and forgets. the person who always take advantage the others will never learn what respect and true love is all about coz they are very used to being forgiven in the end. i honestly feel that is BS and i am not gonna let that happen any more. i may not have a lot of friends and love ones now BUT i have to say that i am very proud that the few i have will stand by me and will not take advantage of me no matter what. i wish you all the best and i hope the ranting helps you feel better even just a little bit. Bless your heart!

i used to be like that. then i realized i was being taken advantage of by these so called friends. noit wasnt money issues either.just time spent listenign to her problems and helping her out motionally. but when i needed help or someone to talk to where was she?exactlly so i got tired of being her doormat and we havent been friends for 5 years now.it feels good