Why do I wanna die recently?

All I can say at first without knowing you personally is that you need to do WHATEVER you possibly can to snap out of this mindset. You feel this way because you THINK this way! You say you are blessed with genuine friends; so reach out to them, surround yourself with them and feed off their energy. The future is coming whether we like it or not so all we can do is live each and every second to the best of our ability and the days, weeks. months and years will take care of themselves. It is important to realize that there is a very powerful influence in our lives called the "Law of Attraction" and EVERY single negative thought or action you exhibit in your life will ensure that more of the same will come your way. FIND and focus on the little things for now that make you happy and FEED off of these positive feelings. Do this and MORE positivity will come your way. Last but not least, do not EVER be afraid to reach out to someone neutral like a counsellor or something similar so you can have a completely unbiased perspective to help you overcome things like this. Your new mindset can start RIGHT THIS SECOND. It is up to you if you choose to set this in motion or not. Good luck and believe me; try what I am suggesting and before you know it all of this will be but a distant memory!

I hope you will feel better soon. maybe the depression is a sign you have to change your life from one extreme to the other, sometimes the deep dipressions are the best opportunities into real success. But I can't tell you out of the blue words that might cheer you up 'cause I don't know what made you feel this way. so all I can say is that I hope you will feel good. can you say what made you feel this way ?