What question about yourself does puzzle you most?

I have this like, magnetic attraction to people who need help emotionally. All the guys and gals that come into my life seem to be very negative and pessimistic in nature. Which is the complete opposite of me. I'm always positive, cheerful and optimistic. But I can't seem to find a guy that's like me. Sometimes it feels as if I was put on this earth just to make everyone else feel better. It's a happy thing, but at the same time, it's lonesome. That's my question, you know. Am I only here to make everyone else happy? Do I need to find my joy in making others feel better about themselves? I have my own personal goes and aspirations, and making "everyone else" happy wasn't on the list. I only want to please those who truely care about me in return, and have stroing family values. =)

It's not so much the question that puzzles me the most. I think I already know the answer but just won't face up to it. That question is: " What happened to me?" What I am now is extremely at the opposite end of what I wanted to be growing up.