did I love him much?
By aendzie
@aendzie (571)
Philippines
August 31, 2008 7:39pm CST
He's always there for me when I need him. He always follow my will, he treated me like his queen. I'm his all. And now he's gone. I always think I didn'tlove him much. And that I always take,he always give. I even pick a fight when there is no reason to. He's always kind,understanding and patient. me? I always demand, get irritated,nag, I feel sorry for him. I feel very very sorry. I love him so much but I dunno if I have showed him enough. I always say I love him,but did I show him? he does,.he did,now he's gone. I couldn't say those words again.I couldn't even give back his love.
Love the one you love like there is no tomorrow. Life is short.you may wake up one day your love one is gone. sometimes, literally gone.
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3 responses
@anawar (2404)
• United States
1 Sep 08
aendzie - hi. Those are very wise words. But I think you're being too hard on yourself. It's only in looking back that we experience regret.
You loved the best you knew how, at that time. Thinking about it now that he's gone, you wish you had shown more love. Remember, you gave everything you had, so don't feel like it wasn't enough. It's okay,
travel lightly,
anawar
@aendzie (571)
• Philippines
2 Sep 08
that is really nice of you. thanks for the advice. I need it the most. I think you're right. I've always known that life is short and that I always let him feel/ show him that I love him. Maybe it is really his time to go, and be with God. I hope I'll be ok soon and that his soul may rest in piece.
@anawar (2404)
• United States
2 Sep 08
I don't know how and I don't know when, but someday a peace will settle over you. Maybe tonight while you sleep your heart will mend a bit. He will always be in your life, in your mind, but not in body.
If it helps to think he's out of the country or not near you, I would let myself think that. Anything that eases the initial pain will make the time of recovery less frightening.
@rsa101 (40966)
• Philippines
1 Sep 08
Well I guess I know by the way you're writing this post he knows that you really loved him so much. Sometimes its just a different message that we send out from our loved ones but I know what you did was out of love and not for anything else. Everything will be ok for you more especially with him. Do not worry about it anymore and its time now to forgive yourself and move on with your life. His love that he shared with you will make you strong as he has shown you how to love and nothing more.
@aendzie (571)
• Philippines
2 Sep 08
thanks very much for the kind words. I hope wherever he is,he is happy. I really felt alone and lonely now he's gone, I felt I lost my legs, half of my life. Now I'm just thinking that he's out of the country,or that we broke up and he didn't die. The pain subsides when I do so. But I miss him.I hope God will help me.
@jeanchia (137)
• Malaysia
2 Sep 08
i am so sry for yr lose. I think i understand how u felt. I hv the same experience with the man of my life, My Dad. That is why now, i've learn to appreciate those around me and live my life like there's no tomorrow.
Love is not calculative. He doesn't mind the giving & taking, just as long as you're happy. Be strong! I am sure he would like to see you happy. Take care & God Bless!
