God can you hear me?

United States
September 15, 2008 1:05pm CST
Hello MyLotter's I wanted to share this write with as many people as I could in hopes of finding those out there that have been wondering the same thing as I have all of my life. I have had a great deal of pain in my life from as early as 3 years of age. My Father was murdered when I was three. I had an Aunt and a very close cousin of mine murdered as well. I have lost an Uncle three cousin's due to another drunk driver. I was molested by Uncle's for years which later served thier time behind bars. I had been in abusive relationships also! Well to sum it up I have been mentally and sexually and physically abused. I know my case is not one of the worst to hear about and beleive me I know my life is more than wonderful compared to others out there. I just have had the same question for as long as I can remember. Is there a God out there? I came to the conclusion there is someone, something a creator of mankind out there. But I am left still clueless to why so much Hate goes on in this world today? If you created so much why would you allow things to go the way they do? I know I will never have this answer unless for some reason a miracle is going to happen. I guess what I need to say is is there a God? If so God can you hear me? I do look at the good in life to try and measure things out and it never seems to help me. Is this a question that will never be answered?
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@Bebs08 (10681)
• United States
17 Sep 08
Hi Amywrites, I understand your ordeal. Yes, of course there is God in heaven. I admire your positive thinking that your life is more than wonderful than other people out there. You are right!! there are those who suffered more than you do. Well, why God created things and He allows bad things to happen? my dear, in the first place, there is evil who is the author of all bad things here on earth. The devil is the one destroying God's creation. God sometimes allow this to happen so that we will draw closer to Him and ask His help. No body can surpass the devil except the Power of GOD. And we can have that POWER to overcome the devil if we come to the LORD and ask His protection.
@Bebs08 (10681)
• United States
17 Sep 08
You're welcome and wish you good luck..
@NrgDfenZ (1810)
• Belgium
16 Sep 08
Hi there.. The hardest thing about believing in God is that he isn't talking back :D Well at least, I don't think he does, I don't believe in God, but that was my choice a long time ago :) Have a nice day..
• United States
16 Sep 08
NrgDfenZ, Yes that is the reason it is so hard. Thank you for being so honest with your belief.
• United States
16 Sep 08
NrgDfenZ, If you do not mind me asking, why?
@LittleMel (8742)
• Canada
17 Sep 08
Yes there is, and I call Him the creator. I was raised as a catholic but along the way I have seen and heart how those that call themselves religious, said one thing and did another. I realized then that no matter what religion someone has, it doesn't make him a perfect human being. So I started to open my heart and mind to non religious subjects such as surpernatural, evolution, aliens etc my parents are worried that opening my heart and mind to these would take me away completely from religion. They are right I do not believe in religion anymore and that makes me believe even more that there is God out there. Sounds strange I know. The words of St Thomas Aquinas: "Angels transcend every religion, every philosophy, every creed. In fact angels have no religion as we know it ... their existence precedes every religious system that has ever existed on earth." So is He, the creator of what we can and can not see. You may wonder if He can create something why can't it be created perfect? We were created perfect, with the knowledge of what is right and wrong, but then we are also given free will. And this is where things go wrong. Adam and Eve with the apple, scientists creating bombs instead of preserving nature, priests molesting kids instead of teaching, mothers throwing babies to the dump instead of giving them to adoption - you can see that the choice to do what is right is there, but this is not what they choose. Some choices affect a larger circle than our own personal circle. Those with power and money, if they do not make the right choices, it can affect the entire nation which in turn affect the whole world. In your case it's more of family circle, your uncle molested you instead of caring and protected you. It is very sad that he made this choice to do you harm, but it is great to know that you make the right choice by keep looking at the good in life. It must be hard for you to do this, with so much pain you have gone through. But you are not alone and your efforts won't go in vain. I know this because although I didn't go through as much pain you went through, my life is still far from fairy tale. I don't always make the right choice, but when I do, my prayers are always answered - maybe not right away, because one minute of the creator's time can be seven days of our lives so to speak. It's worth it to make the right choice, you will see this to be true someday.
• United States
17 Sep 08
LittleMel, Thank you for taking the time to explain what you truly believe, I feel as if I also have the same thoughs about religion. I just never broke it down the way you just have. I will never understand why My Uncle's did the things they did to me for so many years. But, on the other hand I have forgiven them my heart could not bare holding so much hate inside of it. I just never understood why God would allow something so awful to happen to a child. I am still to this day have questions but am slowly learning reason. I think through this discussion with mylot it has opened my heart and mind to many different reasons. It is helping me a great deal. When you said, "They are right I do not beleive in religion anymore and that makes me believe there is a God out there." That makes alot of sence to me! I have always had a problem with the Adam and Eve with the apple. Why would the temptation be put there in the first place? Who will ever know the answer to that question. I guess I need to stop trying to break everything down. When someone is doing something wrong, lets take my Uncle's for example, they must know that they are hurting someone? One of my Uncle's daughters was born without female parts, I guess that is God's way of protecting her? Thank you so much for your thoughts the more I read from others the more I can understand. It really means alot to me. Amy
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• Pakistan
15 Sep 08
hello dear... well it was really bad to hear you going thru so many bad things... yes God exists... i do not know about beliefs in your religion... but in my religion... a person who goes thru so many misshaps is the choosen one... the one who will be blessed alot in hereafter... if he/she still remains the believer...and has faith in God... God is the one who knows the best
• United States
15 Sep 08
Hello Saroodebolan, Thank you for your responce to my writing. My religion is what is confusing to me. I believe there is a higher power, I was never raised under any type of religion. The things I have been through in my life has left me with questions. I raise my children to know there is a God they say thier prayers, we even pray at every meal. Thank you so much for sharing your words ( aperson who goes through so many misshaps is the chosen on.) That gives me a different way of viewing it.
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• Pakistan
15 Sep 08
i think you should choose some religion... that will give a positive dimension to your life..
• Guam
15 Sep 08
Hello Amywrites, I'm much touched by your life story; but I am happy that you are still appreciative of life. Keep it up! Just like you, many other persons ask these questions and as you, they are awaiting the answers. Well here are the answers? Yes, there is a God-a sumpreme God who commands us to pray. We send our prayers through Jesus Christ, His Son. Point is, if God is "every where" and "all-knowing" don't you think that He hears everything? Indeed, He hears our prayers and knows our deepest thoughts. So now you may ask. If God hears and sees my suffering,why does He continue to make me suffer? Well, God's intention for this earth was incredible! He purposed for His people to live in bliss-a genuine paradise. Unfortunately, Satan and His demons came in the picture and created a mayhem. So who is truly to be blamed for all our sufferings-Satan must be. However, God wants us to be happy. And the only way to have happiness and a peace of mind is to strengthen your faith in God. Believe in Him and as a result you'll draw closer to Him. Despite of all this wickedness, God still gives us hope. For as He says, Satan will be locked away for a thousand years! But don't be complacent because God will let Him free a again to test mankind. If you subject yourself to God during that period of time, then God will know that you're loyal and is one of those who upholds His sovereignty! Bye :) Take care and all the best!! [SEND ME A MESSAGE IF YOU'D LIKE FURTHER ENCOURAGEMENT]
• Guam
19 Sep 08
Hey Amy, I'm happy that I could help you. You're most welcome! Take care..(smiles)
• United States
15 Sep 08
Hello pierpier46, Wow! Thank you so much for the in-depth writing to me, it truly was heart felt! I guess I never really viewed things in that perspective. I think part of me drawing closer to God is through my write and others responce. I guess God's heart ached at one point when his intention for this earth was incredible for us, then turned in a different direction. Thank you so very much for taking some time out to respond to me. I am sure it will help more than just myself. Amy
• India
17 Sep 08
Amy..I do not believe in god....as u asked, no body can hear ur voice of pain except those who care's u.. This is becoz,there is no one in this world as GOD...In my dictionary,the word god means to an affection...If u care any body,then u ll be a god for them.... I salute u for ur courage of living in those condition of troubles with out getting any help from others....Y do u want some one cald God help at this time??? Rock on as u doing now...Live ur life in ur own way....As i do... Sri
• United States
17 Sep 08
backseatboy, Thank you for your input, I really do appreciate it. You ask me Why I want to call God for help at this time? I would have to say because I do not know exactly at this point in my life. I do know I have been through much in my life and I made it this far. I have had many issues with life as an after affect of what I have been through. I know someone greater than myself helped me get through it. I know someone greater than myself helped me to love again, trust again so I could have the family I do have right now. I have questions for him I will admitt that, and I hope when it is my time I will face this God. Alot of responses to this discussion has helped me open my mind and heart. Thank you for being so honest on your belief in not believeing in God, I do have an open mind and I do not see anything wrong with that. I feel everyone has the right to believe what they choose. I know I believe in someone that is much much Greater than myself, I am just running a little slow on trying to find him. Many Thank you's to you! Amy
@lingli_78 (12822)
• Australia
16 Sep 08
hi amy... i'm so sorry to hear about the mishaps that you had undergo in all your lifes... you are a very strong woman to be able to withstand all that pains... as is there a God, my answer is a definite YES... the fact that you are questioning this is the evidence that God exists... otherwise, you won't be able to differentiate between good and evil and you won't be able to know that it is called pain... God is the Creator of all good things from the beginning... in fact, humans are the only creations that are given the abilities to questions "WHY" in their lives... and this is called the mental judgement that God had put deep inside our heart when He first created us... i hope this will answer your questions and you will keep your faith in Him... as the Bible says, "Good things will come to the people who love Him and abide to His commandments."... take care and God Bless you...
• United States
16 Sep 08
lingli, Thank you for your response! Me questioning him is evidence that he exists because otherwise I would not be able to tell the difference between good and evil and that it is called pain. I never knew that or thought of it that way. Maybe the question Why was a mental judgment that God put deep inside of our heart. But that leaves me back to the same question.. I am learning to have faith in him again and with your response and the rest of mylotter's I will get there eventually. I will continue to pray! I know one day I will get an answer....
@trixyteddy (1070)
• India
16 Sep 08
Hello Amy, I am really sorry at what you have gone through. When I read through what you have gone through, I realised mine were so petty. There is a God up there and within each one of us. It is for us to find him. I too had a lot of negative thoughts, not because of my troubles, but because of the others. I used to feel, I'm so comfortable when another woman has to slog her way just for a morsel a day. I've seen too much of this. But again, people who cared, explained to me the balance of life. (I'm still confused over that). I started asking God to guide me and Jesus did do that. Every step of the way, the satan has kept giving us troubles, but Jesus has helped us through everything. He is my Jesus and your Jesus and when you ask Him, He will and will guide your way. I'm not preaching please, but want to share this with you. Please don't think that God does not hear you. He even knows all your thoughts. He loves each one of us. He created us out of love. Log on to www.jesuscalls.org and read through the message every morning. You will feel so much better. I will keep you in my prayers Amy.
• United States
16 Sep 08
trixyteddy, Thank you for your response, you seem to be very sencere. I will add the website to my favorites. Maybe it will help me with the issues I have in life.
• Canada
16 Sep 08
I know what you are saying as I have often wondered the same thing . I beleive myself to be a good person yet it seems bad things always happen to me whereas it seems that others seem to get off so easy and it makes you wonder if there is really someone out there that can hear our prayers . I do belive that God is out there and I beleive that some day we will have all our questioned answered but while we are here on earth we have to accept and belive . This can be very difficult when things are always turning out for the worst but with the help of family and friends we can get through these times as well and maybe that is how God is listening and answering our prayers and that is thought those that help us through these difficult times . I am so sorry to hear about your life story as it is hard to read and not feel what you must have went through in life and it is no wonder that you would have doubts about if God can hear you but I believe he is listening to you . Things in my life have been pretty miserable as well ( nothing compared to all that you have suffered though ) and I have had a hard time dealing with things and have started reading books about what it is like after we die and some of it does make sence . One of the things that stuck with me is that we chose this life that we are living now . We chose this life because we wanted to experience what it would feel like because in Heaven you don't experience these feelings of hurt and betrayal that we feel on Earth and that the worse our life is down here determines where we stand when we return to Heaven . The more hurt we are willing to go through down here means the better things will be in Heaven . I am not sure if any of this makes sence to you because I can't word it the way I read it but it does help to think that maybe all this suffering is for a reason and that some day we will understand and be grateful for all that we endured so that our life of eternity in Heaven will me made better for us .
• United States
16 Sep 08
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@underdogtoo (9579)
• Philippines
16 Sep 08
You have had it really bad in this existence and who is to know the reason why? Many others have an easy life and there is nothing to indicate that this is something they did not deserve. I believe in the law of causation which states that every action has a reaction, every effect has a cause. I have had a lousy life but not as terrible as yours. I hope you exhaust all your potential reactions and start reaping some good reactions. There are some good things in your life waiting for you. You have a sharp, incisive mind. That is a gift. It could be your tool to turn your life around. The things that happened to you HAPPENED to you. You did not choose to do them. That is something to ponder. You can use your will to control the rest of your life. I know you can do it because I have.
• United States
16 Sep 08
underdogtoo, Thank you so much for your kind words. I too believe every action has a reaction, and every effect has a cause. I also believe in forgivness, and I think that is one thing that has helped me deal with past issues in my life as well as my everyday struggles. I started to write when I was 19 yrs old, and with that came my own art that helped with expressing my feelings. I have written and published alot of my true feelings and with that it has touched so many out there that felt some sort of the way I have for so long. Thank you for Waking me up!
• Kenya
16 Sep 08
Does God exist? I've had times when i question it too? the hurt and the pain you have gone through in your life must have forced to question the futility of life, i mean was life meant to be like this? no, at least i don't believe that it was meant to be full of suffering and pain. my quest to find God lead me to do many crazy things some hilarious some dangerous but all futile, till i sat down and wrote a letter to God, it was more of a tirade of complaints and curse nothing the almighty would want to hear but guess what he heard or read and from then on i had this peace inside me that made me see him in everything, the trees the wind the sun and in me, sometimes i loose sight of him and whenever i feel really far away i write to him again, no formalities just the way you would talk to someone without the pretense, so i suggest you do the same, ask him all the questions you've been meaning to ask but had nowhere to direct them to. you'll get your reply, i know you will because i did.
• India
16 Sep 08
Dear Amywrites, I am shocked and very sorry to hear the events that has happened in your life. I am sure you are a great person with lot of courage and confidence to have come across all these tough situations. I believe in God and I want to tell you he definitely exists. I will pray for you regularly and may God give you all Good things in life. Take care, love, Chandrika.
• United States
16 Sep 08
Chandrikas, Thank you so much for your response. I will say with confidence I am a very good person. I hope when my time comes if God is the person I have to face, I hope he forgives me for questioning him. Thank you! Amy
• Philippines
16 Sep 08
Hello AMYWRITES..How are you now?You know what my dear... Just continue praying.. I believe that everyone of us,as we born here in the world had already drawn our future.. Everything you've experienced is a part of you..For me, I looked it in a way that it's just God's test for your faith in Him maybe He felt you are too far from Him and He makes those things toinvite you to come to Him.. Just pray my dear.. It makes you stronger right?That's why look in a way that you can face any challenge now...
@Roziah (1)
• Brunei Darussalam
16 Sep 08
Hello I just wanted to share hope god can hear me. Now I'm really stress because I want to study abroad to do my Bsc but unluckily my department wanted me to change my university as the university has no accreadation. Oh My god why like this in the last... minute????? Hope god can hear me now ......... Help me to solve my problem........Where I can find another university....
• United States
16 Sep 08
Roziah, Hope God hears you too! Let me know if he does. I would really love to know.
@walkthetalk (1307)
• United States
15 Sep 08
I believe there is a God. Otherwise he would have let all those terrible things continue to happen to you. I think maybe if you have these questions you need you go to church and get your life right. That's not the only way, but that is a spiritual place. It may help you understand why you had to go through all that. There is a reason for everything, I believe. I think if your asking if there is a God you must think down deep there really is. I believe you will find your God. Take care.
• United States
15 Sep 08
walkthetalk, Thank you for your responce. I have thought of going to church with my family. I know it will be healthy for us all around. I also believe everything happens for a reason but I never put my sittuation into that thought. I know I am one of those very protective parent. I have a trust issue as well. Maybe your advice will help me in the baby steps that I hope I will soon find in my future. Amy
@carmela0210 (1591)
• Philippines
16 Sep 08
im really sorry for what happened in your life, maybe its just a test for you to be strong and to be a better person, i my self have encountered soooo much pain, that i thought i cant manage to bear, but after the pain realizing that it was too good to be in this world though, yeah thier is GOD who would have created us if their was NO GOD, whats happening now has purpose a test in our lives on how can we cope up with it.
• United States
16 Sep 08
Carmela, Thank you for your response! I have also looked at it in that perspective. You wrote you to have been through some pain in your life. I would like to invite you to my myspace so you can read my blogs. I write poetry and have published some of my work. It has helped me release some of the pain that have I kept so tightly boxed up. One poem I wrote is I SEE YOUR SOLDIERS ALL AROUND ME http://www.myspace.com/mylifestoryandautism