Is this normal?

To me it just sounds like you have fallen OUT of love with your partner. I think that maybe it is time to let him know how you feel because if you keep going on like this it is only going to hurt him more.

yep and he is not even my husband, is it not scary when you constantly feel the need to walk away, my friend also controlling and painfully childish, he is the type of guy who come from work at 1 oclock to check if am in the house or if i passed some other place that usually drives me crazy and before he used to go through my phone just to see if am getting calls from other people than him imagine that.... anyway you are the only one who knows your situation and the only one who can make the decision but believe me if your not happy with the man however long you have been you probably never will, control freaks are usually hard to change, because this probably in bred or the character of the person unlike a drunk or a smoker, but whichever you deal your cards make sure you are happy with the desicion

If when the two of you are getting along and you still have thoughts of leaving him, then maybe your are just that unhappy or unsatisfied with him. Usually it's when things are bad when the thoughts such as those pop into our heads but this is going on while things are good so there is reason for that. How often do you two not get along? Are you getting along less than you are not getting along/ Is he not satisfying you in any way or has the amount of love you once had for him diminished. You need to find out the answer as to why you feel the way you feel about your husband. I don't think it's simply because your crazy. Take care and God Bless!

You are not crazy. But you bury something deep inside your heart that cause you unhappy. You must find a way to take it out and throw it away. You only wrote a short passage there while it is about your life which is very complex. So I guess it's hard to us to give you good suggestions that suit your condition at the moment. My suggestions are: 1. Review your daily schedule. Maybe life routine make you feel boring. Maybe you never have a change to do your hobby anymore or something that you really want to do with pleasure. 2. Ask yourselves do you love your husband. He can be good or responsible or hardworking or care about you and your children, but without love, you will feel it tasteless 3. Share your feeling with your husband and have heart to heart discussion; and decide whether you two need to see marriage counselor or not. In some cases, an expert help is needed desperately. Hope these might be help.