I'm 28 and I Miss My Daddy

@SaintAnne (5453)
United States
October 16, 2008 9:19pm CST
I haven't seen my dad in 4 years now. He's in the Philippines and I am here in California. I try to keep in touch regularly but it's not the same as having him around when I want to give him a hug and need his hug in return. Yes, growing up, I was daddy's little girl. Is it wrong to still feel that way every now and then when you get higher up there in age? Right now, I feel that I'm moving towards the direction I really want in my life and I want to share the great news with him in person. I also feel that one huge part in my life is falling apart and I just need him to be here and make things better again as he did when I was younger. I love my mom and she's been there for me all this time but I still miss my father and wish he was here too. I know we all grow up and are often told that we need to outgrow our dependence on our parents. Have you?
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@rsa101 (37968)
• Philippines
17 Oct 08
I guess there's nothing wrong with being "Dad's little girl". It is pretty normal that you miss him a lot since distance prevent you from being close to each other. I think maybe you could petition them to be there for you instead by that you could be together again as one big family. Or perhaps save for them to allow them to see you there and visit you even for a short time.
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
17 Oct 08
We've been thinking of that but my dad has his life there too. He doesn't really like the idea of moving here especially at his age but the short visit would be really nice. Thanks, rsa101.
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@rsa101 (37968)
• Philippines
17 Oct 08
Most Filipinos are dreaming that someday they would be able to visit where you are. and you have the opportunity to really do this to your parents. I guess they would all be proud if you could do that someday.
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
17 Oct 08
My dad's the only one left there. Well, he has his wife there with him while my siblings and I are in the same state here with our mom. So you could understand his hesitation to come here, he has a good life there anyway. But my brother will be spending Christmas there with him. I'm excited and jealous at the same time.
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@enola1692 (3323)
• United States
17 Oct 08
I am in a differnt boat then you are my dad stop talking to me about 4 years ago because my hubby an I moved to sc from fla because my hubby was offered a great job in law enforcement an there were no jobs in fl so we took it an now he has nothig to do with me , my hubby or yes sadly my daughters an I know what you mean there are times i would like to say to him grow up I need to talk to my dad who knows maybe you will luck out an your dad will move to the states an no you are never to old to need your dad
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@enola1692 (3323)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Thank you for the thoughts SaintAnne but I dont think it will happen
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Well, there are things that just can't happen then. As much as I'd like to say "but it's family", I've had friends who do not get along with family members at all and who treat their friends as their family instead. You take care, enola!
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Oh, enola, I'm sorry to hear that your dad decided not to be a part of your family now. I am sure there were moments in your life that he missed and you wished he was there. Just send him good thoughts but focus on your family now, I guess though I hope one day you two will spend some time together again. Take care!
@checapricorn (16061)
• United States
17 Oct 08
[i]Hi Anne, My Parents are far from me and we are txting everyday and I am calling them twice a month,, It's hard and I miss them every single minute as well as my younger sister and wish someday, we will be staying in one roof again like before! They are my life and I will be doing and trying my best to have them with me! 4 years is quite long for you...anyway, hope someday you will be able to visit him or bring him here also! ENjoy![/i]
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• United States
21 Oct 08
[i]ohh..I am not using our phone also Anne, hahaha..I cannot afford! LOL! It's really helpful to have these yahoo and skype! bout my paypal, I redo the process, submit the requirements again and waiting for them to contact me through email! [/i]
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Thanks, Che! I hope your dream of having all your family under one roof again comes true real soon. I've resorted to using phone cards now since I went through a phase when I just called and called and spent a whole lot of time on the phone... and of course, the bill was soooOOoo high. I'm so happy with Yahoo and we could do videos! Take care, che... and did you ever resolve that problem with paypal?
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@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
21 Oct 08
At least something is being done. I hope you hear from them soon.
@nice030481 (1109)
• Philippines
17 Oct 08
it is natural to miss someone we love speially our parents, why he is here in the philippines? and why are you are in california? i hope you can find a time to see each other, even here or in your place now, me, i dont want to leave my family even now that i have my own family, i am married now and having 2 children, now we are living with my parents, what i want now is to have our own house, but near my parents, coz, i want to see them everyday, life is so short specially for our parents, it is better for us as their children to tell them how we love them while there is time.
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• Philippines
18 Oct 08
one time in my life, that was eight years ago, i have a boyfriend, and his mother is working on Canada, his mother want me to go with her but first i have to married his son, but on that time i still dont want to get married because i think i am not yet ready. then we ended our relationship. i dont want to leave my parents on that time, on that time we are only three in our house me, my father and my mother, my sister has his own family. now that i also have my own family, i want to go abroad, it is because as what you say, there are more opportunity abroad, and of course more money as long as you are hardworking person. but there is no regret on my decision before, im happy with my husband and my 2 angels.
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
I'm glad to hear that you're enjoying your life with your husband, two kids and your parents, nice. Keep it going. Thanks!
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
My dad has lived his life in the Philippines. I decided to live in the US permanently knowing I would have better opportunities here. I planned to see him this Christmas but my plans didn't push through. But I am definitely thinking of visiting him as soon as I can. I'm sure my dad knows that we love him. I tell him that every chance I get. Thanks, nice.
@mands61123 (2098)
20 Oct 08
mmm not really i was always very independant from an early age i love and respect my parents but i need them to have their clear boundaries otherwise i suffocate. I'm pretty close to both of them now i'm older and i'm told i was a daddies girl originally but then he left and it was just me and mum so i guess i had a bit of both really. The only member of my family i feel that way with is my middle sister it's very strange but if i haven't seen or talked to her in a couple of days it's like i get withdrawal symptoms or something. I really miss her lol i don't rely on her for anything it's not a dependancy thing she's just a good friend and a good sister. We can always laugh and talk or even just sit in silence and i feel fine with her it's a strong bond that is just there. More so than anyone else really i'm pretty lucky though i have a good support network of family and friends around me each person plays a clear role and is very important to me. i am truely blessed. Sorry you miss your family babes *gives a big hug* you feel better now?
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
21 Oct 08
Thanks for the hug, mands. I don't think there will come a time that I won't wish my father was here to witness something in my life. We are both lucky that we have supportive families and friends. I'm pretty close with my sister too but when we fight, it's also as horrible. Well, enjoy your family! Thank you again.
21 Oct 08
thanks hun
@ptl9900 (209)
• Canada
17 Oct 08
I was a Daddy's girl myself. I loved my Dad very much and so did he.I used to share all my important decisions with him. It was somehow always necessary for me that he should be on my side for any of the important things in my life. The worst day is when I lost my dad last year. I still have this hole in my heart that no one can ever fill. Make the most of the time you spend with him. One day you might also wish that you had more time with him
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@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
I am sorry to hear about your dad's passing away, ptl. I am sure your dad loved you very much and was proud of you. I am sure he also appreciated the fact that you always let him in on whatever it was going on in your life. You take care and thank you.
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
20 Oct 08
I am so glad that you were able to hear those words from your dad, ptl. A lot of us take for granted what we feel for our loved ones, assuming that it's a given they know we love them but saying and hearing these and how much we appreciate them or that we feel appreciated make up for a lot of wonder. You take care now.
@ptl9900 (209)
• Canada
20 Oct 08
Thanks for that. Yes it is that feeling that will keep us going forever. It is amazing but the day before my dad passed away, I got a chance to talk to him. He told me that he loved me for the person I am and that he is happy for how my life has turned out.He has never ever said anything like that before to me. So I know he left with being happy about me and I am glad forever that he had that feeling.
@subha12 (18441)
• India
17 Oct 08
it is very natural. parents are always very precious. whatever may be your age, it is what i understand. its natural you are missing him. try to meet him soon
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@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
I do consider my family as the most precious part in my life, subha. I will definitely try to visit him as soon as I can, right now, I just miss him a lot. Thanks!
@Bluepatch (2476)
• Trinidad And Tobago
17 Oct 08
I was in my forties when I remember wanting a hug from my daddy. This is a really sweet posting and you should be happy you still feel this good about your dad. Mine passed away years ago and I still miss him and I am 57 years old. This is really sweet. Thank you.
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Thanks, bluepatch. I think most of us never get too old to want a hug from daddy. Take care!
@mjmlagat (3170)
• Philippines
18 Oct 08
Hi SaintAnne! I agree with you about outgrowing our dependence from our parents. But the fact that we are living away from them is really tough and the pain of missing them is sometimes overwhelming. I always thought that this should have been the moment when I take care of them in return but you know, opportunities..distance... Anyways, I wish you all the best my Friend. Just keep in touch with your father always--he surely longs for it.
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@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
I can relate, mjm... about thinking that it's our turn to take care of them now but we still can't. The whole experience is overwhelming but we just have to think that we have their support and understanding. Thanks for your time, mjmlagat.
@missybear (11391)
• United States
17 Oct 08
I'm 44 and I miss my parents too. They both in germany. I see my mom every 2 years, but my dad I only seen twice in 24 years. I think he is comming next year. You will always miss your parents I think, no matter how old you are.
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@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
I could only imagine how you must be looking forward to seeing your dad next year, missybear. Is your mom coming too? I hope you guys make the most out of that time you'll be spending together. Twice in 24 years, I would miss my dad so much too. Thanks!
@becnh83 (806)
• Philippines
18 Oct 08
hi saintanne, how are u? still misses ur father? hehehe me too....i understand what u feel. my father worked abroad. he is in rhiyad, i miss him. he will be out of our sight for every two years and we only have phone calls after the two years of being in rhiyad he will be with as in two months..short time right? but at least we have that small time to see him unlike yours 4 years u havent seen him, so so so sad to hear that.but do u often see him on net?at least u will relieve..but dont worry he'll be fine here he misses u too im sure and u know what im frm the philippines, hehehehe....where did ur father leave here? maybe we're just a kilometer away...
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@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Hello becnh... At first, I was reading your nick as bench... So you get to spend Christmas with your dad then, huh? That's very exciting. I'm sure the two months of waiting will seem long but before you know it, you get to see your dad again. Just make sure you appreciate every moment of that time with him and to not sweat the small stuff. I re-read your post again and I'm confused now. I guess you're trying to tell me that your dad is in Riyahd for two years and then comes home for two months vacation? My mom used to spend a month with us a year. My dad is in the Visayan region. Thanks!
• Australia
17 Oct 08
It doesn't matter how old you are, everyone misses close family. :)
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@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Thanks princess, I think most of us miss our family no matter how old we get.
@ljq897 (77)
• China
17 Oct 08
I support your behaving .I had leaved my parents almost ten years since i grduated from university.In this ten years,i worked at a starge city where i had none loved ones until i met my wife five years ago.We married without any celebration.I often missed my parents,my dady and my mom,i ringed him and had a long talking with them.Now ,i went back home to see my parents with my wife in holidays.I just like as bird that was mature and left home alone.
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@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Hello ljq. We do have to grow up and live on our own and by our own decisions. I am sure your parents were as happy as you were when you visited them with your wife. Thanks for sharing.
• India
17 Oct 08
Hi......... here i m for ur help, first i want to know,why ur father doesn't want to contact u? Is he havs been married to any other waman or what? i m sure i will help u if u wll more aloberate ur problem. bye...
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@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Hello vipul, thanks for offering help. My dad and I always stay in touch. There was never a time when he did not want to contact me so I have no problem in that area. He is now married to someone else besides my mom but that doesn't stop us from being close. Thanks.
@mimpi1911 (25464)
• India
17 Oct 08
We all grow, become independent, our course of living changes but the only constant thing in our lives are our parents. And lucky are those who could be with them and take care of them and get the love and what it takes to feel pampered, belonged and much loved. Sisi, I am sure you will get to see you dad soon. Its such an amazing feeling. No matter what age we are we are still kids to out parents. I am very much dependent o my parents emotionally. I still live with them and they are the ones who have pulled along the tough times with me, without any fault of their own. I am blessed. We are blessed. smiles...
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@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Hello mimpi. It's been about 6 years now that I haven't lived with any of my parents. I get to see my mom every week and we call each other almost everyday and she lives about 10 minutes away. I wish it's the same with my dad, I just wish he's also 10 minutes away or even an hour away, not 15 hours of a plane ride away. I like to think that I'm independent but like you, I think there is that emotional dependence. Once, I told Boyfriend that we could just elope and he said no because he knows I want my family there and that's what he wants to happen. Thank you very much.
• Philippines
17 Oct 08
Hi Anne dear, I feel for you. I'm 27 and I miss my Papa and Mama too. I got married at the age of 21 and I haven't seen much of him really (only during special occasions). When my ex-hubby and I separated, I went to another city for 2 years and haven't seen them again. When I went home, something bad happened that sent me packing to another city and leave my parents again. Other people just don't realize how lonely life can be without seeing my parents all the time. They see me as a happy person, always smiling, but dying deep within. True, I'm a grown up, I am fairly independent, I have been surviving on my own, but I ache for their presence. I long for their hugs, for those talks, the advice, the laughs.. Even now, that I'm about to become a Mommy, it hurts that my parents aren't here, they've been with all my nieces and nephew, with all my sisters during these times of their lives as well... I'm not bitter about it, just hurting... Sigh, you're right, phone calls aren't just the same with the personal touch... I miss my Mama and Papa...
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Hello, maple_kisses. When do you get to take your maternity leave? You don't think you'd go home and spend that time with them? Or maybe ask your mom to be with you. I'm sure you two can find comfort in each other especially at this time with your grandfather's passing. Again, I'm really sorry that you have to go through this especially in your state. I hope things get better soon, just stay strong. It is lonely not seeing parents for such a long time. Sometimes, we tell ourselves that it's better to not think about them so that we don't have to hurt and worry so much but we still do. Take care, M. Call your mom and I hope you and your dad get to talk soon. What about your sisters? Do you get to talk to them too?
@thuhuong (823)
• United States
17 Oct 08
Why? I kiss my daddy everyday and wish him a good day at work. I sit down to have dinner with him when I can and give him hugs whenever we share a moment. There's nothing wrong with being a daddy's girl. I just think that when my dad is gone, I have given him all the love I could have and while he's still here I want him to know I love him. I give him a kiss in public and in front of my relatives. We have this type of a kiss that you don't use your lips but your nose. It's almost like an eskimo kiss, sniff sniff. It's kind of childish but I don't care. It's my daddy! LOL. As for my life direction, I know there are certain ways to maintain your reserved manner however whomever I have met have not said a word. It has been alright, I don't question that nature of mine. Call your dad though. Just saying hello is the hardest part, he'll understand. Take pictures and send them over, whichever you can. Wish you luck with finding the best way to get closer to poppa!
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
Thanks thuhuong. I do try to keep in touch with my dad. I am sure your dad knows you love him and there's no better time to always let him know than the present. Take care!
• United States
17 Oct 08
You grow up and learn to be independent. But I think most people never really lose that feeling of missing their parents(s). I'm 51, and I still miss my Mom, and I talk to her on the phone almost every day. My father has passed away about 13 years ago, and I am OK, but I still can get sad thinking about him and missing him some times. In times of trouble, you want your parent(s). It sounds like your mother is with you, and your father is not, so it makes sense for you to miss him more. If you can't stop pining for your father, or can't do anything on your own then I think that might be a problem where you're not separating enough from parents. But from what you write, it sounds like you are a strong, independent adult, who just misses seeing her father in person.
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
I do make my own decisions, thedogshrink. I let my dad know what's going on and he supports me whatever my decision is. I just miss being with my dad in person. Thank you for your kinds words and I hope you keep on talking to your mom regularly.
@Opal26 (17679)
• United States
17 Oct 08
Hi anne, I think that is nice that you have such a close relationship with your dad. You should be happy that you do and it is perfectly alright for you to feel the way that you do. At least, that's how normal people feel about their parents, I think. I wouldn't really know because I didn't have a daddy that loved me or cared for me or that I cared about. And my mother was too neurotic and scared to even know what she was doing either. So I only know what I think is normal and you had what is normal. You should be missing your daddy and I think that is so nice and sweet that you still share a closeness even though you are grown. As for me I'm just glad that I came to terms with the fact about my dysfunctional past and can finally accept it for what it was~
@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
17 Oct 08
You are right, Opal, no matter what others say, normalcy is subjective. What is normal to me may not be normal to you. Anyway, I think every family is dysfunctional in their own way anyway. For a long time, growing up in a religious country and where divorces are none and annulments are few, I was ashamed that my parents were separated while all of my friends had parents that are together. But I've also learned to accept it for what it was. Thanks Opal and take care.
• United States
17 Oct 08
I use to live by myself for about one year and I know the feeling of loneliness. You just have to learn how to let go sometimes. I was really desperate like you when I was living on my own. I was missing my family a lot. You can call often and talk to him. You can visit him.
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@SaintAnne (5453)
• United States
18 Oct 08
I'd like to visit and see my dad again but it's not in the cards anytime soon. It would have to be next year though. I hope you're not feeling lonely by yourself anymore, goodcharlotte and thanks!