November 30, 2008 3:41am CST
Everytime you speak about love, I simply shrug and laugh it off. Everytime I want to express my real feelings, my fears are too great that I can't talk. Everytime I want to say "I love you," "I'm sorry" my lips would just say, Everytime I want you to hold me and cry before you, I shrink and pretended to be strong. Everytime I want to look into your eyes and explore you deep inside, I couldn't because I'm far too shy to do so. Somehow the walls I built around me became thicker. They encase me and I'm suffering inside. Some of my defenses are becoming forced habits, but all of this make me cry. I long to love you as you love me, to tell you the truth but I need support. So don't stop caring and loving... Until such time I'd get out from my shell and be mine own true self. Help me, I need a nudge.