I am done
By ladybug565
@ladybug565 (2216)
United States
May 7, 2009 11:31pm CST
I have never been depressed before. I have been through alot of really bad things in my life but I have allways been able to find a brite side and turn it all around. untill now. I am angry and depressed and I have no clue how to turn it around there is absolutly no bright spot this time. I am a good person, I am nice to everyone and honest to a fault. I am not suicidal, just depressed I want to just give up everything is just too hard. have you ever been pushed to the point you just dont want to care anymore? I feel like a different person right now. I dont want to be nice. sorry I have just had a couple of really bad days and I had to vent, I guess that I just need a little advice. how can a person go from being happy to depressed in 2 days?
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8 responses
@ladybug565 (2216)
• United States
8 May 09
a little bit of everything. to make a long story kinda short I am going to lose my daughter (14) because someone called child protective with a bunch of lies and I can prove it all lies but because my ex has full custody and just agreed to let her stay here, she is going to move back with him. now with him she is angry and violent. she doesnt want to be there. She has worked really hard at controlling her anger since she has been here. She has missed alot of school due to illness but other than that she hasent gotten in any trouble. I lost my girls last year, I couldnt see or talk to them for 3 months because of something that happened to them and they had to investigate and make sure they were safe. I turned to god and things got straightened out. Add the working 2 jobs and not being able to get by about to lose 1 job because the lady cant afford it now that she lost her job, people back stabbing me at work. it is just all to much.
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@ElicBxn (64169)
• United States
8 May 09
That's so tough. now, if your ex and you can agree to go back to court and change custody maybe you can get her back
but loosing the one job because the lady lost hers, well, not much you can do about that - except look for another job...
just hang in there, it may seem bleak, but sometimes you have to hit bottom to be able to see a way out of the hole...
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@ladybug565 (2216)
• United States
8 May 09
thanks. im sure I will be ok it is just really hard.
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@Anora_Eldorath (6028)
• United States
8 May 09
Ok, I typed this out once and my pc decided to be a bugger. You did the most difficult thing by admitting you're feeling depressed. I'm the type who believes in steps where depression is concerned. I think meditation, exercise, and healthy eating is a great place to begin. Sometimes we just need to get moving. St. John's Wart is my step, because the herb can be just enough to help the body kick into balance. I am a strong supporter of counseling at any stage, because sometimes venting to another can help us work through our issues, and better deal with them. If medication is needed, I don't see it as a bad thing. We sometimes need a little extra help getting the body to be in balance. It's really ashame that mental health has gotten such an unfair rap over the ages. I think it's best to keep all facets of us in good health.
Best of luck to you and I'll keep you in my thoughts.
Namaste-Anora
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@ladybug565 (2216)
• United States
8 May 09
thanks. I have never felt this way before and I dont know how to deal with it.
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@ladybug565 (2216)
• United States
8 May 09
thanks. just the tip of the iceberg. if things work out with my daughter I will be ok but if not I will defenatly need to talk with someone. you are right about the 2nd job. I was cleanig a house 3 days a week so it is going to hit hard with the finances but I am getting burned out on that.
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@Anora_Eldorath (6028)
• United States
8 May 09
I just read your reply to the person above me, you've a lot on your plate. My suggestion knowing the story would be to see a doctor, if you can afford one. Sometimes you can find counselors that will work with you on a sliding scale or free scale. You just have to do a bit of looking. Loosing the second job may be a blessing though, even though right now it might not seem that way. It may give you the break you need to recover. The body really does react to stress, and it will shut down for us in order to maintain itself. My many blessings sent your way for peace of mind. Namaste-Anora
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@suspenseful (40192)
• Canada
9 May 09
I have always been a little depressed and I think that often times for those who do not understand it and then suddenly become depressed that it either is because one is overtired, or overwhelmed, and gives up temporarily. It used to be called a mental breakdown. I think with your case, you said it yourself, you are a good person, nice to everyone, and honest to a fault. So maybe you are doing what your parents expect you to be, that nice lady who has a smile for everyone. And now there is something you cannot fix by being nice.
Has there been anything going on that could cause this? Maybe you were doing too many things to help others. So why not tell your friends that you can't do as much as you could do. Take it easy, get more rest, and pray. Prayer does work wonders.
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@Loen210 (1540)
• United States
11 May 09
This is one first step, to look for others who have gone through tough times and share their stories.
You should find a support group and if possible get some counseling, so professionals can listen and help you out on steps to take.
I have been through thick and thin, and am still alive, thank goodness.
@katsmeow1213 (28716)
• United States
8 May 09
Happens to me all the time, and usually there's never anything that caused it. Sometimes it's just because I took a day off from my daily routine. If I don't get out of the house and have a bit of fun, I fall into a state of depression that can last for weeks. I don't know how to change it, I haven't learned that much yet. I'm pretty much only just starting to recognize that it's happening! That's a start I guess.
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@ladybug565 (2216)
• United States
8 May 09
yes, that is a start. I am hoping that today will be a little better.
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@leenie50 (3992)
• United States
9 May 09
Hi ladybug,
I know what you mean when you reach the end of your rope. You do have a lot going on and it seems that things aren't going your way. Depression is something that slowly takes hold but it seems like over night. I know because I've been dealing with depression for years. It started back in 1990 when I had my hysterectomy. My hormones just flipped out and it was one thing after another. I'm still on anti-depressents. My life has been a roller coaster of very difficult situations.
The point I'm trying to make is, all the ups and downs with your ex and your daughters, not to mention financial burdens, it seems that everything came to a head. Venting and praying can get you through for a while but if necessary, see your doctor and discuss everything with him or her and together you can decide whether or not anti-depressents are needed.
I hope everything gets better soon and if it is better for your daughter to be with you, hopefully your ex will see that. Hugssss
leenie
@ladybug565 (2216)
• United States
9 May 09
thanks. I did set up an appointment to talk to a counselor and I talked to my pastor yesterday, she is going to help mediate at the school, and my friends are going to sit down with me when I talk to my daughters father. I am hoping that the depression is a one time thing brought on by all the extra stress but it cant hurt to talk with a counselor.
@machatago (385)
• Philippines
11 May 09
Hmmm maybe you do need someone to talk to like a friend who can really help you out. Or try to go on a vacation, get away for awhile, maybe something is wrong with the environment that you always get depressed. A friend though is really a good solution to share your feelings and maybe that person may help you out. I hope you will be well though. Cheer up okay? there is always the sun after every storm. I know I have been depressed for so long, took me even months to finally get a hold of myself. Just don't lose hope.
@besthope44 (12123)
• India
8 Oct 10
Most time, its my work..with ontime deliveries and work loads. I try to divert mind on music and i feel better. We need to manage depression, as it is part of life in busy world.
But if we concentrate, we can manage it. I does it through my yoga, listening music and going out on vacation.









