no boyfriend since birth

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it's been twenty two years of living but since now i don't even have a boyfriend. ahm im not praising myself but im not ugly though im not photogenic and also sometimes i didn't fixed myself... id admit that it's so hard for me to interact with boys and they always told that im a strict woman but i tried my best to face them in a nice way... but i observed that people who have the same interest (anime) like me can easily approach me. there are times that i want to be comfort or feel that someone care for me other than friends and family but everytime i feel this loneliness i also feel afraid... im afraid of loosing that someone easily... you know, if ever, it will be my first time to handle a relationship, and like me who had a mood swings i don't know our relationship will last a little more time...