I'm guessing this will topic will suit mostly women...

United States
May 18, 2009 10:26am CST
I'm guessing this topic will suit mostly women, as in the majority that may reply would probably be women... but I'm sure there are guys out there that could relate and if any are willing to speak up, I'd like to hear your account as well. I recently came across a few pictures I had taken of myself when I was in high school, my junior or senior year. I'd forgotten that I'd taken them, but as soon as I found them I remembered taking them and why I'd taken them and what I was going through with myself at that time. I found a few pictures that I'd taken of myself in a vertically long mirror I had at the time. I'd taken a picture from each of my sides of my stomach and from the front of my stomach. At the time, I truly thought I'd needed to lose weight. It wasn't anything anyone had said to me, it was all in my own head. I thought I wasn't skinny enough, I thought I wasn't skinny at all. At the time I was 100lbs and 5'1". But, I looked at myself and saw someone that wasn't happy at all with her body. So I took those pictures as a way to compare my weight loss as I lost weight. After taking those pictures, I started waking up every morning and doing 50 crunches, 50 sit ups, 50 push ups and running two laps around my block. Within a week I'd bumped up my exercise routine and I was waking up early before school and doing 100 crunches, 100 sit ups, 100 push ups and then walking to our school's indoor field house and doing 4 laps running, 3 laps jogging and 2 laps walking. Because of my exercise routine and the time I was waking up(and therefore lack of time) I wasn't eating right. I wasn't entirely not eating, that wasn't my goal at all... it was just a lack of time. So I'd skip breakfast, eat a light lunch, and eat little for dinner. Within 2 months I'd went from 100lbs to 93lbs and was at a standstill then no matter what I did. I wasn't losing anymore weight. That was a good thing though. My family kept telling me I looked anorexic. I didn't see it, though. I knew I was eating, I wasn't getting sick after eating at all, I was just exercising... I thought I was healthy other than wanting to lose just a couple more inches off of my waist. Well, now I look back at those pictures. Now at the age of 23 and after giving birth to two children... and I wonder... "what the heck was I thinking?!" I'm not saying I had the perfect body. But I look at those pictures now and I will say... my body may not have been perfect... but it was damn good! Not to sound conceited, honestly, because at the time I do remember *hating* my body. But now I wonder, after having two kids and a body nothing like I did back then... I'm perfectly happy with myself and my body. I guess it's kind of part of having the body I do being from having my kids. I think... it may not be the best body... but it's my body and it's my body that gave me the two greatest loves of my life. But how come, then? How could I possibly think I wasn't beautiful back then? I could I possibly think I was too big? Where can a healthy 17-18 year old girl get the idea that she's too fat? Is it in the media? In the way other people look at her? Or is it just in a girl's head herself? Is it just something where a person will never think they're good enough no matter what other people think?? I want opinions, stories, whatever. Has any of you ever gone through anything like this? Have any of you ever known someone that did? I know girls and guys alike still go through things like this to this day.. so.. how do we go about getting their thought patterns on the subject to change? How do you get them to think from a healthy perspective on the subject? If you went through it, are you over it now? How did you get over it? Are you trying to get over it?
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@carrine (2743)
• Philippines
19 May 09
LOL, its really different our figure now compared to our younger years, its true, i myself to that also, iam comparing my body now and before, grrrrrr.. but what can i do? but i do still make sure that i do look good and sexy, though not the same as before when i was in high school LOOOL
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