I hate myself!

@sanuanu (11235)
India
June 3, 2009 8:53pm CST
Two reasons to hate myself: 1. I have thought of a beautiful discussion last night but since it was a power cut, I coudln't post it. It was a night time,hence I couldn't write in it any paper also. Well, I thought that it is only one thing I will be doing in night and that it m... errr sleeping and I will be not forgetting about it next morning but it has been 2 hours since I woke up in the mornng and I can still not recall it. This is the most annoying habit of mine, forgetting about something! 2. Errrrr, what was the second reason to hate my self.... Guess I have forgotten it too! God, help me please!!!! So, what do you say, Should I continue hating me so that my inner soul would get up and keep up my with my memory or should I just leave it just as it is!?! Any suggestions are appreciated! Well, thanks in adcance because you never know I can forgt to thank you too after your response
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@dawnald (85135)
• Shingle Springs, California
4 Jun 09
Stop hating yourself or I'm coming over there and spanking you. Oh wait, you might like that!
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
No, no, no, I don't like to be spanked by a woman. I would like if I will be spanking the lady LOL! Order accepted, I am not hating myself now on!
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@dawnald (85135)
• Shingle Springs, California
4 Jun 09
Ok no spanking. Especially since you've stopped hating yourself.
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
I am now feeling very relaxed!
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@paula27661 (15811)
• Australia
4 Jun 09
Don’t you hate that? I get so annoyed when I know I have come up with something brilliant and an hour or two later I have forgotten the whole thing! You know what I hate even more? When I need to do something and I don’t remember if I have already done it or not, that one may just be old age and it probably doesn’t happen to you. Anyway, you can hate the situation but never hate yourself. Try putting notes on your cell phone when you have no pen or paper. Don’t worry about it sanuanu; you still managed to get a good discussion out of it!
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
I am very sorry paula but when I talk to you about forgetting something I recall the situation in which you choose the wrong car to sit and watching your husband in another car, remember! Sorry, I want to have a laugh please, seeking permission! Don’t worry about it sanuanu; you still managed to get a good discussion out of it! thank you so very much, you are a SH.
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@paula27661 (15811)
• Australia
5 Jun 09
You have permission to laugh! It happened a couple of years ago and my husband still won't let me live it down! He mentions it every chance he gets and laughs...
@mhagskier (322)
• Philippines
4 Jun 09
In your situation its really hard. The power supply is cut. And it's too dark to write down the topic that comes into your mind. Well, what can i say is, it is normal to a person to forget something, the illness of forgeting do not choose it's victim. It also sometimes happens to me. It is like just a snap that i forget what will i do. For me to recall what i should do i go back in my mind what i have done before then the thing that i should do comes again into my mind.
@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
The funny thing is that we don't forget about respiration or about food or about our medicines but we forget about titles for myLot! Hah, I tried that also, going back in time but all I can recall is that it was some very nice discussion but it is not coming to my mind and the worst thing was that I thought of two reasons to specify in this discussion and by the time I thought of writting it down, I forgot the second one! Eh, I need some consultation!
• Philippines
4 Jun 09
Hi there! Well, first of all, its not good to hate yourself. Whatever the reasons are you shouldn't hate yourself. I've been there and done that. I used to hate myself for a lot of reasons like making a lot of mistakes or like you - forgetting something. I realized that the more you hate yourself the more you lack self-esteem. It is better to love yourself so the inner beauty will come out and people will appreciate you more. Committing mistakes is a part of life what is important is that you acknowledge that you did bad and not do it again. You should be able to learn from those mistakes and show the people that you are capable of doing good. About forgetting, well, I think people often forget. It's either they are old that's why they forget or they lack vitamins. I hope I have contributed a bit.
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
what is important is that you acknowledge that you did bad and not do it again. Well, every time, I think that I will not commit the same mistake but .... I would like to see me after marriage. I would like to see if I chaneg myself after having a wife in my life. I have heard that after marriage a new life starts!
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@JenInTN (27514)
• United States
4 Jun 09
I say you should just leave it as it is..besides, your inner soul may be a rebel and then you won't remember a thing. It will come to you. Take care.
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Oh, that means when I stop remembering about it, it will eventually come to my mind. Thanks for the response, Jenny!
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• United States
4 Jun 09
Sanu- Life occurs. I don't think you should hate yourself over something you had no control over. And there have been many times I've thought of an idea as I drifted off, didn't write it down, and forgot it. I place that as it was not my time to write about it. If the idea is meant to be written down, you will remember it in due time. Now, if you really want a trick, learn to write in the dark. Keep a pen and paper near your bed and scratch out what you are thinking in the dark. I've done this a few times when I've had a dream and didn't want to wake my partner. Namaste-Anora
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Ouch! That would be an art to learn. Never thought in that way. I can write in dark also, after all, writing doesn't need our eyes. I can write on my PC by closing my eyes, so I can do it pen and pencil too! Thanks for the great idea! This will cheer me up! So, you write your dreams too?
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• United States
5 Jun 09
Yeah, the ones I remember lol. Sometimes I don't recall them at all, but those I do recall I journal about, and may research. I do research especially where animals are concerned, making notes, and if something occurs later on in the weeks I make note of it next to the dream I had. Namaste-Anora
@subha12 (18441)
• India
4 Jun 09
Oh I think these are trivial. it is natural to forget things. But you may remember again and can post the discussion at later part of the day.
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Ah, after reading all the responses, I now feel good and I think that it was a part of our life. May be I need to learn how to remember things for a long time. I have had a session on making our memorty a little stronger, in which I was taught that if we want to learn something then we should construct a story around it, have you heard of that?
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@sid556 (30960)
• United States
4 Jun 09
I say that you should invest in some candles & flashlights so that you can write things down no matter what. Hating yourself....oh just keep on forgetting about that.
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• Philippines
4 Jun 09
I agree with that. But it is a torture to eyes to write with a candle light.
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Infact I do have candles but I don't have any flashlights. The matter of fact is that candles are not available in my room as it is available in kitchen only. I use cellphones too but that was locked with my mum's room, besides I trusted my memory rather than writting it down and see what has happened. My memory hasn't been a friend of mine!
@sid556 (30960)
• United States
4 Jun 09
I know that feeling. My memory doesn't do me too well either and I keep forgetting that and "thinking" i'll remember something...oopsys.
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@savypat (20216)
• United States
4 Jun 09
I have note pads and pens all over the house for just such occasions. To hate oneself for this is pretty strong, I have just accepted that this memory loss is a fact of life and have found a crutch to use. Blessings
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@savypat (20216)
• United States
4 Jun 09
In that case you must be trying to do to much and have over taxed your mind. Slow down, do one thing at a time, the human mind is not built to multitask despite common conception on that subject.
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Probably you are right. I am thinking many things at the same time and keep forgetting things like one I have mentioned in the discussion. Thanks for the suggestion pal! It really mean a lot for me!
@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
And important factor is that i am only 27 now and still I tend to forget thigns. Till now I have not recalled the second reason which I could't specify for this discussion!
• Malaysia
4 Jun 09
Well i was responding to someone's discussion a minute ago and suddenly after a long respond typed and i wanted to post it up the electricity was shut down due to short circuit by the circuit breaker due to the lighting.Imagine how frustrating it was for me to typed all the nice and meaningful content that could be useful for the person who needs the advice and greatly destructed by the struck of a lighting.
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Sad for you and I feel sorry for your emotions. It has happened with me too but in my case the connection to internet got lost after me typing responses but in that case i use notepad to copy the content as well as the link on which I was typing. Then later on I can do the posting and my hard work will not go vain!
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@abcnadz (457)
• India
4 Jun 09
lol .. don't say you hate yourself for small reasons. i have hte same problem. i forgot a lot of discussions i had planned to post here... also i'm know for forgetting things. when i'm with my friends and when i want to tell them something.. i keep calling them and when they turn towards me to ask what the thing is ... i FORGET !!! . i thought this was temporary but this happens even now.. but i usually i forget only unimportant things like rumours i heard or something.. have a great day
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Here comes my princess? How are you doing princess? I am fine! keep calling them and when they turn towards me to ask what the thing is ... i FORGET Ohh, that is a problem because I hae doubts that you will forget to say "I love you" to your boyfriend on phone when he will call you. LOL! Will you? Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha! I hope you are not crying are you?
@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
I know that you are not crying but I was just teasing you! I don't know, should I say that your bf will the luckiest one or not because he must be feeling on top when you say I love you but when he will be hearing it for more than 100 times in a 5 minutes call, then perhaps.......LOL
@abcnadz (457)
• India
4 Jun 09
ur princess is doing really good. . . and darn, u think i am a cry baby ?? let me tell u my dear.. i am not .. i don't cry til some1 hurts me a lot. and about saying i love you. i say that when he picks up the call, when he says bye. and once in every 5 mins. he gets fed up of saying love you 2... ... so how are you ?
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@sandymay48 (2030)
• Canada
4 Jun 09
Maybe you were really asleep and dreaming of a beautiful woman. Then you woke up and it was dark at night and you couldnt remember what it was. Dam, she got away again!!...Next time ask her name and phone number in your sleep so you can call her when you wake up!
@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Note: Sanu has decided that now onwards he will not talk about those beautiful women anymore. He will be giving more concern on other aspects of life.
• Canada
4 Jun 09
Hi sanadoodoo...you must have had a bad dream after all!..No more women! No more watermelons!!... Ok, what topics shall we talk about now since we now have to behave! And you are not allowed to hate yourself for NO reason!
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• Canada
4 Jun 09
good evening cannette...Sanu is giving up on women!...whatever shall we do!! We need to slap him to wake him up me thinks..
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@Bloggership (1104)
• Indonesia
4 Jun 09
Man... Just as i thought... Your a funny man. Well i don't have any suggestions for you to deal with your forgotten habit. But i do hope that your forgotten habit will also makes you forgot that you hate your self.
@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Interesting, and I hope that I forget about things on hating myself. You could actually see that I started with two topics to hate my self and I already have forgotten one of them, isn't it funny?
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@postlover (191)
• China
4 Jun 09
Take it easy! Sometimes it is a good habit to forget something, maybe you will live happyly in the future. I will forget something,if I dont' write them down at once. The reason is that all of the thinking are suddenly appeared in my mind.If you are care of the ideas, write them down before forgetting them.
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Point taken PostLover. Welcome to myLot. I would like to add you as my friend. Please 'please' me by accepting my friends request. hows your posting going on. Like to see your discussion in future. Do start some!
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@sunita64 (6469)
• India
4 Jun 09
Well you seem to enjoy your habit of forgetting. For forgetting always keep a pen and pencil with a notebook near you, write down immediately what comes to your mind that way you would be able to remember.
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@boogerman (1544)
• Philippines
4 Jun 09
In the situation of the discussion starter, he must also prepare a flashlight so he can write even there is no electricity around.
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Yes, I always use to write down the idea in a paper just in case I forget about it in future but last night was a powr cut and it was 11 at that time, so everyone was sleeping and I didn't want them to feel uncomfort, so I didn't try to find a match box or candle and slept right then!
@marciascott (25529)
• United States
5 Jun 09
Yes, I thought about what they said when reading your discussion, keep a pen and paper handy. that way you won't forget.
@carrine (2743)
• Philippines
4 Jun 09
gosh, thats too petty things for hating your self that because of those stuff??? gosh .. LOL let me say this to you! you dont have to hate yourself for any reasons that be, because God created us according on his image and likeness. and he didnt created you to act that way. hope you got my point honey. LOL
• Philippines
4 Jun 09
Nice one. I agree with you. :)
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
yes, but think about the test he gives us and he expects us to come pure after every test. I am not that tough, you know. May be, this way, I am asking him to change the image he has created for me. Who knows he can listen to me, can't he?
@carrine (2743)
• Philippines
4 Jun 09
to sanuanu just be contented of what you have right now and what he gaves you. because thats still a gift. so appreciate things what is there instead. well people tend not to satisfied of what they are having, they kept on looking more. whew.
• India
4 Jun 09
Hahaha! I too have the same kinda problem. I use to think of some nice discussion and I'll get it. But, I'll think of posting it later and at last, it's gone! I'll forget the topic. This is so usual man! Just be cool! This is a common thing. If you don't forget, then you can't be a human lol!
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Hi Jevendiran, How are you? yes, this is usual but sometimes you need to take out your frustrations, isnt't it and I have done the same thing. Better spitting that swallowing, specially if it is not good for our stomach isn't it?
• India
5 Jun 09
Yeah, that's right. It's always better to share our problems with someone!
@rakesh284 (1472)
• India
4 Jun 09
I think it is habit of many people and they are worried about it. You have given good examples about your forgetfulness, you are a brave person. I think it is time for you to marry because you might forget about it in the near future. You might be think a lot about something in mind and that thinking is taking over all your plans. I think you should do some meditation in the morning and don't really think too hard about anything.
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• Philippines
4 Jun 09
Yah that's good. Get some meditation and not to think too much and too hard. But i think to marry someone is an example of a thing that will not get out in your mind. One thing you can not forget. :)
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
marry What in the world cause you think about marriage? Gosh! no matter what I do, people finds a cause to get me married! You have given good examples about your forgetfulness, you are a brave person The good thing is that I didn't forget what has happened with me last night but I forgot the things which came to me just a second before, isn't it funny?
@rakesh284 (1472)
• India
5 Jun 09
I think its really funny. But Is this short term memory loss?
@boogerman (1544)
• Philippines
4 Jun 09
Hello, friend! How sad about that. But do not blame yourself about that, you do not want to happen that thing and it is unexpected. All you have to do is to find a way to solve your problem. As what others had already mentioned, you should take down notes when your computer was not available. And prepare a candle or flashlight to use if power is still not available until night so you can enjoy writing. You must keep calm and you might remember that discussion later. Happy mylotting and have a nice day!
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@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Most of the time, when I am on pc, I will open notepad and write it down to make a posing on myLot because it takes time to open even a new discussion page, isn't it? As when I am not on PC, I use a pen and paper to write my ideas down and my mum calls me a freak when I do that because I write it in my way which no one can understand.
@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
Don't tell me, you use a phone to do myLot? I am surprised, did myLot came in mobile version also?
@boogerman (1544)
• Philippines
4 Jun 09
Well, I use pen and paper when doing tasks, I write it first on paper before typing on my phone to submit it. When I am posting a discussion, response or comment, I just type it directly on my phone. I also prepare extra batteries so that I keep on getting online.
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@nimzia (388)
• India
4 Jun 09
hi mylotter, I understood your problem,because some time i also have this problem,and power failure make me mad..........But don't hate yourself, the best way is to forget about the forget one's and love yourself by giving respect.......happy mylotting
@sanuanu (11235)
• India
4 Jun 09
I will give respect to me now on. Thanks for stoping by and giving me a thought or two! Thanks agin.
@nimzia (388)
• India
5 Jun 09
You are always welcome,and happy to be a part of your happiness.....happy mylotting