I'm an addict & I have 106 days into my Recovery...

United States
August 11, 2009 10:22pm CST
What about you? Im a 27 yo mom & wife. I have a great life on paper but never been able to be content within or say "no". I am proud of my clean time however need more support!
1 response
ladybugmagic
@ladybugmagic (3978)
• United States
12 Aug 09
Congratulations on your achievement. I could say the usual, "one day at a time," "it works if you work it", and "keep going to meetings", but I am sure you already have that enough. What encouraged you to get help to become sobre? Did you hit a bottom?
ChelseyF
@ChelseyF (17)
• United States
12 Aug 09
Yep. Hit bottom HARD. Last day I used I snorted 30 20mg ER Methelphinidate (extended release ritilan), popped 5 2mg benzos, smoked weed and polished off two 5ths of whiskey. Keep in mind I'm only 5ft tall. I woke up in an abandoned construction site. My encouragement is that I'll lose my family and without them, I'd wanna die. I don't just want to be sober, but I NEED too.
ChelseyF
@ChelseyF (17)
• United States
12 Aug 09
lets see, I have yet to find a sponser. I did 67 days in Intensive Inpatient and I studied Choice Theory. I am in IOP right now and going to AA & NA. My family really is the most important thing to me, but they were before so that's what's scary.
ladybugmagic
@ladybugmagic (3978)
• United States
12 Aug 09
An addiction is an illness, and it blinded you to the importance of your family. You are in a very fragile position, and your post shows it, you need support. My suggestion is to go to a meeting, speak up, and tell someone you need a sponsor, even just a temporary one. Tell them you are in scary position. Everyone there needs you to be sobre, because his helps encourage them to stay sobre and they are there for you. You need someone local to help you through this. They can go out with you, and do some fun straight edge things, to help you get through the temptations that come your way. The good thing is that you can recognize you need support. Use that recognition to your advantage and go and get that human support you need. Your family deserves a happy and healthy mom. :-)