Dreams That Really Freak Me Out
@shaniahopkins (1)
September 10, 2009 12:44am CST
My Great Grandpa died four days ago. I just attended his funeral this morning, all the feelings from whenn my dad died from brain cancer are coming back to me. I really feel liek i'm just dieing, that's how unhappy i am. One moment i'm happy and the next i feel bad for being happy for that moment so i cry for hours. i can't handle this death, he was so close to me and i can't imagine going on without him. I've been havign awful dreams for the last few weeks, they're all abotu deeath and hurtign people i love.
i just woke up for a dream about hitting my brother with a chair. and his jaw busted and he started cryign and then pulled me towards him and we cried on eachoters shoudlers because i felt so sorry adn he knew it. just liek we did earlier today at teh funeral,
i'm suffering from insomnia.
and i just can't handle all this stress.
i woudl pray but i havnet' been to church in years and have absolut;y no idea how anymore.:[
1 response
@SweetArt2009 (42)
• United States
10 Sep 09
Sorry to hear you lost. You may be feeling that you are dieing because you don't have anyone you know that you love so dearly as much as them that have a meaning in your life. It not easy being scared or mixed feeling about cancer. Everyone has bad dreams that are not meant to be bad and extremely horrible.
I also feel that you might have little anger or discourage thoughts about your great grandpa.. if you do just remember that he in better place and has no pain anymore and he with God now. That your grandpa will forgive you for whatever negative thoughts you have. If you have no anger at all or anything toward him, then i would watch something funny on tv, cartoon, or read the comics just to laugh and then go to sleep. The other best thing you can do is ask for forgiveness, and remember all the good thing you done in your life with ur grandpa and be thankful to god for the time and the days you got to learn things too.. You can make your own prayer for morning or night and pray it every. day. asking for help and support and what you thankful for... either way God will hear you and watch over you. He will not give your more than you cant handle..that my best advice and opinion and I will pray for you.
