here I am waiting for nothing to happen :(

@resssaaa (445)
Philippines
September 13, 2009 9:26am CST
I think I'm waiting for nothing. Well as you might know we were once bestfriends then became lovers then back to bestfriends again cause he stated that he has grown tired of all the fights and stuff we've been experiencing though he told me that there would be nobody else but me. I even remember crying and it hurts cause I cannot cry when he's around. It's pretty a hard situation for me cause everyday I just feel down and can't find anyone to talk too. I clearly remember him telling me that he just wants a rest then I asked him last night when would he be done resting cause I miss him so much now. He just told me that he never said he'd be resting he just said he doesn't want to have the commitment anymore cause he's tired but I'm pretty sure I remembered he told me he wants a rest but still he keeps on denying it. Really I cannot read his mind. I'm not a guesser you know. And it's already driving me crazy right now. :(
3 responses
@kprofgames (3099)
• United States
13 Sep 09
I'm sorry. It isn't easy but it happens. I assume you are both in college? Maybe he's a bit overloaded and the challenge of a relationship and college aren't working out for him. Maybe he's changed on what he wants. It's hard to tell, you two are both still young. Even though it hurts maybe it's time to move on. If it's right, he will come back, but in the mean time don't waste your tears on a person that isn't ready for a committed relationship.
@resssaaa (445)
• Philippines
13 Sep 09
Yes, you're right. I don't think I want a new relationship anymore. The fact of me being young is I can't be assured for a long term relationship. Though it is hard to deny the fact that a lot of people even younger than me are in a relationship in this generation. And yes I know that I shouldn't waste time and effort on someone who has no time and for me. But sometimes the mind gets stupid in these kind of situations.
• United States
13 Sep 09
I think heart ache overrides thinking sometimes, but wouldn't call it stuip. Have a friend going through something similar so can relate to how you feel. I am sorry and wish it were easier for you.
@resssaaa (445)
• Philippines
15 Sep 09
Yes I know right? lol :) Well I can fake the smiles, and I can afford to smile. :) Although you just can't really help but think about it, that you'd never be as you were again. bummer. :| Why do I have to be such at drama queen right now. ugh. :))
• Philippines
16 Sep 09
Tough situation!I almost had this kind of relationship but it did not grow coz I saw what will happen in the end.Until now we are friends but I make sure we have a distance.Being friends then lovers then friends again is a difficult situation.It's because you know each other too much and some don't like that coz they want excitement. Well,I think you just have to cool down a little bit.Let him miss you,maybe he might change his mind.
@resssaaa (445)
• Philippines
17 Sep 09
Sad right? It's been like one week now? And I still can't get over it. BUMMER. :) Although I still have the strength to smile, how strong I am! just joking, I'm sorry :))) Well it hurts and I'll never stop on waiting. He told me he just doesn't want our relationship anymore cause I've done so many mistakes and I kept on telling him I'll change but never changed. He knows yeah I've been trying hard but even though that nothing still has changed and that's the problem. I never made him feel what he deserves so much and I regret this but I can't do anything. I tried begging, which is a big no-no (why did I even do that? ) but nothing, he wants to be friends but still I could find hints that we would be together again but I don;t like to keep my hopes as high as that since I am not sure. He still loves and cares for me so maybe he just says those things to make me change. But again, I don't want to think that much about that.
@bing28 (3798)
• Philippines
14 Sep 09
Go out with friends, attend mass and pray to God, if you're not meant for each other, to give you strength to forget him. Keep yourself busy. Don't waste your time, waiting. Attend enjoyable functions, meet new friends.
@resssaaa (445)
• Philippines
15 Sep 09
Yes I always keeep myself busy as I can, thank you! But there are times that even you are busy you just can't help but think. Anyway, I think I'm doing a pretty good job keeping myself busy, lol :) thanks to friends. They're the best!