Its 4 AM and still wide awake
@angel_of_charm (4133)
Philippines
September 14, 2009 3:23pm CST
Can't sleep, I miss lil brother so much. Its his 23rd birthday today, September 15th. The thing is that most of you had known from my late discussions that I lost him 2 years ago after he committed suicide. I moved on from the devastation of him leaving so soon but at times like this I just can't help but miss him so much that it hurts once again.
What to do? I feel I'm in the same pain again...
Had anyone else have the same situation or had felt this feeling once in your life?
What did you do to over come feeling the pain of losing someone you love the most? Could be a mothe/father, sibling , a lover or a friend...
Please share..
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4 responses
@kun2349 (23381)
• Singapore
16 Sep 09
Well well, u have to learn to let him go.. Let him live in your heart but not in your memories.. U can be keeping his image in your heart, but only have happy moment with him in your memory.. For, he will wanna see u happy, and not missing him so that till it hurts ^_^
Talk to someone, open up your heart, and u will feel much better ^_^ THere will always be a time for sadness, and a time for happiness.. ONce sadness is over, happiness will come naturally ^_^
@angel_of_charm (4133)
• Philippines
16 Sep 09
In years, I had learned to him go, I know he is happy but I also know that this feeling I have comes naturally because he wasn't just a borther to me but also a best friend of mine and I also know that we just came so close since we were as child and I just didn't see him leaving so soon. At first, I know I was devastated but now I'm just missing him. I don't cry anymore like how I cry each time I remember him. I just smile at times now because all I can remember was the jolly him trying to make smile all the time.
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@angel_of_charm (4133)
• Philippines
1 Dec 09
crying it out makes it feel a lil better but never would make it fair for me.. i guess this is the price of being a human..
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After all, u are a human, and u do have feelings ^_^
@blackbriar (9075)
• United States
16 Sep 09
The pain will never completely go away, my friend. Never does for someone you really care about. Been 11yrs. since my dad's passing and I still get depressed on Sept. 9th every year, his b-day.
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@angel_of_charm (4133)
• Philippines
16 Sep 09
I guess the feeling is natural when we are so close and had been loved by a certain person, a love one, a friend or a lover. Even how much we try to control and tell our selves its ok deep inside we know its never ok and that we just got to be ok because life goes on. Their gone and we are still living. That's the sad truth about life.
@angel_of_charm (4133)
• Philippines
16 Sep 09
Thanks, I'm sorry for your loss too.. My brother passed away on February too
@a_motherstouch (176)
• United States
14 Sep 09
Hello angel_of_charm,
I am currently trying to hang on to my dad..I don't want to loose him and I am scared.
I lost my Mom 4 years ago,I never knew how to deal with this. for a while I became "robot like" then late at night sometimes I would cry my eyes out.
Talking about it helped me..and of course Prayer.
But each individual and each case is different. I never lost a sibling all I know is how difficult it is any time you face a loss like that.
I often thought of the place my Mom is in, is she happy? Then one night I had a Dream that she appeared to me in a bright light along with 2 others also in bright light one taller the other the same height as my mom, they must have been her Parents, my Mom spoke to me and said , What is wrong with you? Look,... I am doing just fine! and then I woke up. This has helped me so much. I guess we really have to believe our loved ones are in a better place and happy.
Hugs 2 you
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