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@preciouz (135)
Canada
September 18, 2009 1:36pm CST
ok so am i completely crazy or just appearing that way? I think i have lost my freaking mind my ex is finally leaving me alone, no more phone calls, false email addresses, facebook accounts like nothing wow i am so impressed and relieved yet at the same time i am torn, i wanted peace and sanity but it's too quiet it's like waiting for that other shoe to drop wondering waiting if it is... at the same time i miss him so bad it litterally feels like my heart is being ripped out everything was so intense with us from day one, my god this man and that way he got to me is unbelievable no one could make me madder, quicker, no one could make me laugh louder, no one could make me cry harder. He was inside my head, my heart , my soul . He was creepy yet refreshing cause he knew me so well. so am i crazy for missing him?
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@much2say (43552)
• United States
19 Sep 09
Well, for good or bad, he became a part of a routine in your life . . . so you probably miss that. Even though certain people bother you, it's kind of flattering that they pay attention to you, again for good or bad. You probably miss the better times . . . especially if nothing else is going on right now. So I say go find a distraction . . . go hang out with your friends or meet some new people. I don't think you're "crazy" for missing him . . . but I do think as time goes on (as long as you are productive) you'll see that you are much better off without this guy!
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• United States
19 Sep 09
Poor Preciouz! Have you ever noticed that, when the pain of an injury is finally gone, we sort of miss that, too? You might just be missing the drama.
@preciouz (135)
• Canada
20 Sep 09
i never thought of it as missing drama, as i did at missing him and who he was, who we were together, when we were together...
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• United States
20 Sep 09
I hope I haven't offended you. When I divorced my first husband, I, too, missed the times that had been good. The drama of an ugly breakup, though, left me wrung out and wondering what to do with all those extra hours when the stalking, threats and horrors stopped.
@preciouz (135)
• Canada
25 Nov 10
no need to worry my dear i was not offended. :)
@mrinali (392)
• India
18 Sep 09
yah!!you are really crazy for missing him..
• Montreal, Quebec
1 Oct 09
How is she crazy for missing him ? They were together a long time and they DID have alot of good times, its kinda hard not to miss someone when they won't leave you alone and things and people keep reminding her of the good times.
@Chispa514 (871)
• Montreal, Quebec
20 Sep 09
Told ya once and imma tell you again, and i'll tell u till the cows come home lol.... [/b]YOu ARE NOT CRAZY ![/b] After the things you went thru with that man, and the intense chemistry and connection you shared, its normal to miss some part of that. You are human after all, and you do have a heart. Besides, with him, you were able to be your REAL self, not the hard persona you portray to people to keep that wall up so you don't get hurt. I know, I been there. Its hard to find someone you can truly be yourself around, and feel safe and not worry. I wish things didn't have to go down like that, you were so happy and has a sparkle in your eye when things were good. Its hard to find that sparkle now, and will probably take awhile to find again, BUT........ As your older sister, I am here for you, and I'm not going nowhere. I love you sissy, and trust me, in time, the pain will go away, and you'll be able to think about the good times without crying,and without having the heavy heart feeling and missing him. But it would be silly to assume that the feelings will go away so soon, considering how long this went on...both the good and bad. Give it time sissy *hugs*