I am away for mylot for a week now ...

@kmaram (2533)
Philippines
October 3, 2009 2:44am CST
the reason is that i have personal problem that i dont know if i can handle. I even think to quit my life but i have my daughter she's only less than 2 years old. I really dont know what to do now and how to start again new life, im really sad this time
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19 responses
@deniblue7 (122)
• Indonesia
3 Oct 09
Do not be sad, God gives a problem because we can deal with it. So I'm sure you'll get through it and you can also attend back here. We all will always be waiting for and receiving your return. Do not be sad and try to smile. Come awaken your spirit and go to myLot
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@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
3 Oct 09
I really appreciate your comment, i am trying to smile i dont want my daughter see me crying all the time. I know God is good and maybe your right God gives problem because we can deal it, but i need His guidance and help me with this. I guess its not fair to quit my life because of this problem because still my daughter is here, i really need some people and maybe advices from them this will help me a lot, im trying to work here again as much as i can.
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@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
3 Oct 09
Well i think thats the good thing to do "smile" even my heart is breaking right now, but i have to admit that still crying when i think of my problem, appreciate again your comment here.
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• Indonesia
3 Oct 09
I'm glad you smiled. We're all family here, you do not be afraid, my friends the other will always give good advice for you. Meraka friendly and caring, so keep berposting in this forum and share with us.
@adhyz82 (36249)
• Indonesia
3 Oct 09
oh kmaram, i hope you can be strong with this problem. pray for God to guide you and give the solution for this problems. dont give up and trust God, always trust God
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@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
I hope we will not fight here, i dont know if i can give you the details regarding my problem because its too personal for me. But i know that in everything God is our center. I mean He is the one who will be there for us in times of happiness and this sadness of our life. Well lets all be nice here, appreciate all your comment.
@adhyz82 (36249)
• Indonesia
4 Oct 09
oh my friends. of course in our daily life, we always related with th God. He always watch us. i just responds whats the creator of discussion say. i just see from the different view, with stressed that if we had many problems, the effective one to solve is maybe we had to know that it`s time to more closely to God
• United States
3 Oct 09
How'd God get into this? This is no problem with God, and, not to be rude, but it seems as though you're being a little dramtic. You didn't really give a well enough reason to be sad. There's losts of reasons to be sad, I'm sure you could say one. The topic was to talk about you, not God. Please stay on topic. ;)
@jheLaichie (4438)
• Philippines
3 Oct 09
what is your problem my friend? hope you could solve it soon. just be strong my dear. and never ever give up! your daughter is your inspiration, i know that because i know that you love her sooo much! just pray and i will pray for you as well. we are always here my friend. you can handle it though its hard but i know you will. jhelai
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@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
Hi, well i dont know if i will say here, i dont want to give details here but we can chat if you want hehhe. Right now i am facing problem which i dont know if i can survive all people said i can but i dont know where to start. Its hard for me and i guess this is the worst thing that happened to my life. Appreciate your comment jhelai, and do pray for me that i can't survive with what i am going through.
@jules67 (2788)
• Philippines
3 Oct 09
Hi Kmaram. Taking one's life is not the solution. We all go through problems of different intensity. This is just a phase of your life. It will all pass. It maybe easier said than done but in times of this, there is only one thing that we could hold on to and that is God. Everything that is eating you up should be lifted to God. All your worries, problems, anxieties should be surrendered to Him. Let God lead your life. In time, you will see a brighter future. Thank God for your life and for your daughter.
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
Yah, your right taking one's life is not the solution and now that i have a daughter. I hope i will let this thing pass so easy but its really hard for me. I am a weak person i hope God will guide me as I face this thing. And i hope i can survive with my problem i dont have anything to say i feel that i am blank right now.
• Philippines
3 Oct 09
hello kmaram, I don't even know what the problem is, how can i even help you.well, i can only encourage you to move on living. quitting would be the end of everything and could really be hard for your daughter to move forward if you give up. i believe in GOD, and i think you should pray for you to be strengthen and help you face your problems
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
I really appreciate your comment to me, well i dont want to give details here all i want to say is that this is a problem which i really dont know if i can survive. I feel that i am all alone now, i hope God will be there for me give me strength and courage. I dont know what to say sorry, hope you will pray for me that i can survive with this one.
@Boboy2 (62)
• Philippines
3 Oct 09
Your daughter needs you. Why worry about your personal headaches or heartaches? Your daughter is what counts for you now. Move on! Take care of her needs rather than thinking what you can do for your self.
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@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
Hi, well i guess your right i am too selfish here thinking stupid thing without thinking my daughter. I just pray that i can survive with this problem, this is the hardest problem that i have in my whole life. Appreciate your comment here and somewhat i am awake, i am so sorry for what i am thinking.
@icegermany (2524)
• India
3 Oct 09
it happens that due to some of the reasons we arent able to mylot and i think its going to be an year i had taken a break from mylot and it is jus today i am writin here again and i dont know till when i am able to mylot, i usually like mylotting but due to my travel to hometown and nodue to my pregnancy and all i have just taken a break and my due date is next month and idont hink again i will be able to mylot and it is just ifelt mylotting today and i am doing it. person have to always act according to the situation or the stages of life. so dont worry and carry on how it comes, all the best.
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@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
3 Oct 09
Hi there, appreciate your comment in my discussion. Well its true that people have different reasons why we left mylot, but we keep on coming back here because we love this site. Anyway, i am trying to smile and hope i will handle this problem although its really hard for me because i dont know where to start.
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@paula27661 (15811)
• Australia
4 Oct 09
It is said that we are never given more than what we can handle and I have to wonder about that sometimes…You have a young child so remember that no matter how you are feeling you do not have the right to take your own life and deprive her of a mother. I was feeling very low up until last week and I went to my doctor who referred me to a counsellor and prescribed some antidepressants which I was not keen on taking but I did and I feel one hundred times better although I have not seen the counsellor yet. Do you often feel as you do now? If you do I would consider speaking to your doctor about it. If something has happened that has brought you down it may help to share with a friend if not right here with us and see if any of us can help out. My thoughts and prayers are with you...
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
I am trying to talk to my families and friends about my problem. I know in this time they are the one who will give me a good advices and help me as well. Appreciate all your comments to me and i am really greatful that i have someone to talk to like you all guys here.
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@JenInTN (27514)
• United States
4 Oct 09
Heads up my friend! There is still alot of living to do. There is so much to do and so many people you have left to meet. Your daughter is also depending on you to show her how to live. I know how tough life can be sometimes and I am not in your shoes but I can say that after some time..things will start to look up. You have to look up first though and that means you can't be hanging your head.I promise it won't hurt a bit to smile and if you can't find a reason to then just look at that pretty little girl you have.
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
Your right, i have to look at my daughter now I am too selfish thinking too quit my life. I hope i have the strenght and guidance from God above. I hope i can survive witht this one, i can say this is the worst problem that i have in my whole life, maybe i should think that i am not the only one who have problem and they can survive so i should do it also. Appreciate your comment really.
@JenInTN (27514)
• United States
5 Oct 09
I don't think your selfish at all. I think life is one tough road sometimes. I always tell myself that "It could be worse." It really could be. I know your problem has really got you down. No one can understand just how you feel. It just takes some working through sometimes to see the bright side.
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
hi mona. no matter how difficult it is the things that you are going through right now, never even consider the thought of quitting your life. and as you said, you have a 2-year old daughter and just imagine the kind of life she'd lead if you were gone. just hang in there, no matter how difficult it is, we are not given problems that we are not capable of overcoming. just think of it as a test to make you a stronger person.
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
I am too selfish thinking that way i dont considered my daughter. yes, she was less than 2 years old and she needs me, i should believe on what you said that "were not given problems that we are not capable of overcoming. I hope i will find strength appreciate your comment and do included me in your prayers although i dont give details regarding my problem.
@vingyan06 (2486)
• Malaysia
3 Oct 09
Hello Kmaram, So sorry to hear about that. Hope you can handle your problems soon and don't be sad okay. Don't ever think any way to quit please. Think of your adorable daughter and hope you get her to accompany you and go all the problems with you. If you really need some body to talk with, you may pm me. See you again next week, friend.
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@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
3 Oct 09
HI there, well i guess quitting my life is a bad idea, your right my daughter is here, so i am trying to smile even its so hard. I appreciate your comment here and for offering to send personal message to you. I really need someone to talk to about my problem, well its so hard to communicate here if you have ym and its ok with you. Really appreciate this one for you
@angryeve (684)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
Hi mona, I'm sorry if I happen to notice your discussion about this just now. Me too, I haven't been active to mylot for a few week now. I sent a message already and always remember that I'm willing to talk. I've been reading a few replies, and I think I have an idea regarding your problem. Although I really wish I'm wrong. =(
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
6 Oct 09
Hi there, good to see you here again, anyway well i am glad that your willing to talk to me anyway i am so hopeless at this time and my only strength at this time is my daughter. Appreciate your comment here and talk to you maybe in private =)
• India
4 Oct 09
Kmaram, I really feel bad about you. You have to have strengths inside yourself to face any kind of problems of life. Please do get demoralized ever. If you know my problems, it be like a movie to you or may be you will think its a story I am trying to tell you. But its a fact. Now I am at 52, and about 10 years back I was a millionaire and I had everything. That time I had so many friends, who were enjoying with myself. But due to mistake of me, I became just a beggar in 2000 and then I got a good job after 6 months and worked for another 2 years. After that again I lost that job, and was again in trouble. I could not get any job during that time, and did not even have money to feed myself and my family. My elder daughter who was 18 at that time, got Scholarship from Govt. to continue her study and she got admitted into an Engg. College to complete B. Tech in Computer Science. My younger daughter could not go to school for another 2 years due to finance problems. At that stage all my friends and relatives gone away from me. It only God came and saved my life, but he also assured me that I should not quit from that situation. After that again I started earning and again the whole thing came to a shape, but last 2 months again I am jobless. Thats the reason I am looking for money through Internet and I came to myLot and meet friends like yourself here. Today I heard a bad news from my girl friend who is 20 years junior than me in age, she is 32 now. She is a working lady, and her hubby also works with an Insurance company. She told me today during my morning walk, that her hubby's company is giving notices to many person for leaving the job, because the company's turnover is decreasing, and they have to terminate at least 100 person from job. So her hubby might loose the job also. Think of the situation, when I am in trouble, she also face this kind of problems at home. And her hubby almost daily telling her, that he may not return home after office. I talk to her again just 1 hour back and informed her that I need to talk to her hubby at this situation and will extend all kind of financial help if necessary and I do not want to take any undue-advantage against my help. She loves me like anything, and told me that she will talk to her hubby and introduce me with him. I know at this stage I can only do some kind of counselling with her hubby and save him from this worst situation. She needs help at this stage. This is simply called LOVE and nothing else. We will never have any physical relation in future also, and I am not that type of man she know from her heart, but to me its love only. The kind of love I have received from her during last 1 years or so, its the return from my side. You can only return LOVE against LOVE. So you must believe in God and he will ultimately help you. Thanks and warm wishes from me too. It love for another Human and nothing else. Sorry that you have to read such a strory from me.
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
I dont know why i am thinking this way its a stupid thing to quit myself. I know that i am not the only one who face this problem and like what you shared to me after what happened to you and your friend as well still you think positively. I hope i am similar to you I hope i have your strength but its hard because i am too weak, well at this time i guess God will help me and myself also. Appreciate your comment here and hope you will include me in your prayers, I am sorry that i can't say so much thing at this time.
5 Oct 09
hope you can deal the problem..Leaving mylot allows you to think about it..hopefully your problem will be over soon..
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
I hope it will be over and i hope God will give me strengt. Appreciate your comment and i have to face my problem this time not for me but for my daughter hope i can do it.
@Hatley (163781)
• Garden Grove, California
3 Oct 09
hi kmaram oh my dear no no don't think like that,you are' young and you have a precious daughter. YOu are also precious and you must think of yourself as one whom you love. You can start a new life, you must throw back your shoulders, shout I am kmaram, I love myself, I am unique, I have a dear sweet daughter, I can do it, and please believe this,it does work. Jesus himself told us we are to love ourselves as we love others so we are able to love others. You will do just fine in your new life, and soon you will smile again. think of the smiles your pretty little daughter gives you. cheer up not everyone has a lovely little girl like you do. Yes life will get better, believe it and it will happen.
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
Appreciate your comment to me and its really nice. I am stupid thinking that thing I dont think of my daughter so selfish i am. Well i dont know what to say its really hard for me to start a brand new life, but i hope God will give me strength. I know the only person that can help me is myself only. I hope i can survive with this, i really dont know what to say i mean its hard for me to think properly this time. Gladly your here all mylotters who give me advices, appreciate all.
• Malaysia
4 Oct 09
Remember this, all of us live on this planet for one purpose only, be it humans,animals or plants. We have a job to do,raise our offsprings and then we disappear from this world. Don't worry, you and I will have a chance to return back to the creator. But for now, your job is to make sure your daughter's well being are properly looked after. Only YOU can do that. We cannot let our own emotions jeapordize our children's future. It's our duty and we are answerable to them. Whenever I am sad, I look into my daughter's eyes to see her future. Her eyes showed a reflection of me, her father. Her future is in her daddy's hand. Your daughter's future is in your hand. She is your joy,sadness,future,love and everything else in this world. She is your LIFE!
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
Yah its true, my daughter is my life, and i dont have to think this way. I am too weak thats why i say those thing i know its bad and its not proper to think that way. I hope i can get strength from God, and help me with this sadness of my life. I dont know what to say now, but i am glad that you give comment here its really meaningful, i will think the best for now not only with me but with my daughter. She's only less than 2 years old, promise not to think that stupid thing.
@zearah (5381)
• Philippines
3 Oct 09
Hello everyone of us has a problem. Let's pray together friend we can solve it in God's will. You can count on me. Hope I can be an element to make you happy. It's been a month since I am absent here in mylot.
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
3 Oct 09
Yah, i dont see you much here, anyway your right everyone has a problem and i guess i am not the only one facing similar problem of mine. But its really hard for me i know your clueless about my problem and i dont know if its right to give details here but its too personal so i decided not to say my problem. Well its true that prayers helps a lot so maybe thats the thing i can do now and appreciate if you will also. Happy to reas your comment and welcome back again, again i am trying to smile
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@dorannmwin (36392)
• United States
4 Oct 09
I don't know what the problems that you are going through are. But, you need to find someone to talk to about the problems that you have. It is not just for your daughter, it is also for yourself. The fact that you said you even think about quitting your life is terribly troubling even to me and I've never even met you. Please, see if there is someone that can help you through this time in your life and you will find that things will be much better. Everyone goes through dark times in their life, and the fact that you are able to admit it is the first step in the right direction.
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
Hi, appreciate your comment here, i know all people are facing dark times and i am not the only one. Maybe other people experiencing much worst that i have. I am just too weak that i can say about quitting, right now guidance with God, and strength is what i am asking. Sorry that i can't get into details about my problem because its too personal, i talk to some of my families already about the problem and i hope i can pass this one.
@JohnJeff (720)
• Malaysia
4 Oct 09
Hello kmaram!, I hope you can manage your problems successfully.Think positive and hopefully you will come back in this forum.
@kmaram (2533)
• Philippines
5 Oct 09
I am thinking so negatively here, well your right have to think positive this time. I have my daughter and i have to think whats the best for her, i ask God for His guidance to me.