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Yesterday, i didn't have much to do, life was simple - got out, ate with my family, came back home, went on the computer and lived life as an average teenage girl. Around 10ish, I decided I should go to bed since I had work at McDonalds at 6 in the morning. I rolled around in my bed and I just closed my eyes hoping I'd fall asleep. At 11ish, I started crying... at first I didn't know why... I shouldnt be crying, no one got mad at me, no one made me mad. There was completely no reason why I should've cried. Then I realized, yesterday was "suppose to be" my ex's and my 14 month anniversary. I don't know maybe I just miss him hugging me to sleep :/ Everything is pretty crazy lately, it seems. My ex and I broke up a little over 2 weeks ago and we are still friends. A lot of my friends and family want me to get back together with him, he's a good guy but he kept making me sad, we had alot of issues. When he broke up with me, I was kind of relieved and very hurt at the same time. I love him and i still do, I am just tired of everything, and wish it would have been different. He still wants to be with me, and he didn't intentionally want to break up, but he did. I'm not expecting a reply, but I just had to let it out. Release my sadness, or grief or whatever it is that made me cry. The thoughts in my mind, that has been bugging me for the past week or so. Sometimes, I wish we just stayed friends. Life. Undetermined.