I miss her very much!

Philippines
November 20, 2009 7:40am CST
If destiny could have given me a longer time to be with her, I would most definitely try to make her proud. I know that most of the time when my mother was alive, I was very rebellious - more of talking back a lot. I wasn't respectful so many times. I admit to the times that I wished that I can be left alone because I know that I can survive. I take it back. I regret even allowing such thought to cross my mind. Although it's been 5 years since she passed away, every minute makes me wish that I can still hear her laugh and perhaps scold me. No matter how old a child gets, you will always be a child to your mother. Live long with lots of love. This is only a borrowed time we have on this earth and making the most out of it is the best way to say - Thank you!
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@gabs8513 (48710)
• United Kingdom
20 Nov 09
Hello Bee You have learned the hard way of the saying ' You only ever have one Mum in Life, treasure her' In the same breath you sound like you where just a normal Teenager, a problem Teenager, but let me tell you, your Mum loved you no matter what and she will not want you to live with this regret for life, it would upset her, so try Sweetie to forgive yourself as your Mum has years ago
• Philippines
21 Nov 09
Thanks Gabs! I try to make sure that I live up my promise to her which is oversee my sister. I know that as we grow older, we will have our own lives to live. The guilt that I feel is when I try to think for myself. I wonder if it will upset her if I decide to live for myself. Of course, perhaps not, because I know that she would want me to be happy also. I will take your advise and I will try not to live life with regret but live it to the fullest. Thank you again!
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@gabs8513 (48710)
• United Kingdom
21 Nov 09
Hi there Bee I am happy that you live up to your Promise but yes you have to live your Life to and any Mum would want her Children to live their Life to the Fullest You can watch over your Sister yes, but also make sure that you live your Life as well while watching over your Sister Your Mum will want you to have a happy Life, no matter how you where at times, a Mum's heart always forgives and does not expect her Child to punish themselves, it is all part of being a Mum, take the good and the bad and still love your Child and forgive I know as I am a Mum of 2 one is 22 and the other 25 and I have had a few run ins with my Girl lol and still sometimes do as she is very head strong but no matter what I love her, I love both of my Children and would not ever want them to live with regret Good Luck Sweetie
@Lornal (113)
• China
21 Nov 09
Yes, no matter how old a child gets,you will always be a child to your mother. Now, i have a little daugher, i can know the feeling well,Mother's love is the greatest love in the world, it is pure and self-giving. So we should give more love to our parents when they are alive, otherwise we will have much pity. We only to recall them when they pass away,i think they are also happy when they live in the heavy beacuse they have enough love when they are in the world.
• Philippines
21 Nov 09
Hi Lornal! Thank you. A mother's love is the greatest. I do try to show more love with my dad as well. He's one great dad. Always supportive. Have a great day!
• United States
21 Nov 09
I think when our loved ones are alive, despite being aware of mortality and the fear of losing them, we still tend to take them for granted. I don't know why that is; I guess because we always assume they'll be there, so when we let our emotions take control of a situation and no matter how childish we become because of it, we still don't even bother to think "should I really act this way because one day this person won't be here anymore..." But I see it as even if you were the most appreciative person in the world and the best child to your mother, you'd still have regrets about something that happened. I guess that's just how it is.. sometimes we can always find something to make us feel guilty and make us feel like we could have been better or could have done better.
• Philippines
21 Nov 09
Hi Soybean! Isn't it an interesting fact about life. Even when we know the answers at the back of our head, we sometimes can't be in control of how we wish things to turn into. But if there is a lesson learned, we shouldn't repeat history itself, but instead learn from it and see what we can improve on for ourselves and for others. Thank you! (^_^)
@monkeylong (3146)
• Guangzhou, China
21 Nov 09
I think you love her so much which makes you recall her so much. I like my mom,too,. I will always make a phone call to her in case she can hear my voice. Remembering the past days ,I still can get a lot happiness ,Have a nice day.
• Philippines
21 Nov 09
Yes, I do love her very much. And just a simple greeting over the phone really makes a difference. Hearing a familiar voice always can lift up your mood. Thank you (^_^)
@mylo2008 (55)
• United States
21 Nov 09
Oh my goodness, I just got teary eyes. I was just thinking of my mother and how much she gave up of herself to take care of my sisters and I. Although I grew up in a two parent household, as I got older I just appreciate my mom even more. Thank God she is alive and well (my father passed). But, I don't know anyone who has known someone who is now gone and didn't wished that they did something differently. So, we must learn how to show appreciation to the ones we truly love often. It's something that I believe we all need to work on. Although, you did not get to be "that" person you wish to be for your mom, be that person to someone else.
• Philippines
21 Nov 09
I guess it is true that what goes around comes around. Meaning, I should pay it forward to someone else even if I wasn't able to do so for my mom. She was great and I hope that I can share her teachings to others as well. I'll lift my head up and remember her teachings as my guide. (^_^)
@will_win (222)
• India
28 Jul 10
Yes i know how you feel that one of our parents were not with us.Don't feel sad ,it will happen when we stay together and now you just pray to god that forgive you for what ever you have done to her........i sure you will feel better.
• United States
5 Jan 10
That is a beautiful sentiment. I agree. The time that we have with the ones we love is precious. I was also very rebellious and disrespectful to my mother (and father) while I was a teenager. I regret this very much. I wish that I could take back all the pain that I have caused them. But since I know that is not possible, I now do everything I can to show them that I love them and respect them.
@giegrace (214)
• Philippines
23 Nov 09
You must be very close to your mom, despite some misunderstandings. I am respectful to my mom and I obey her most of the time. But we're not that close. I'm not used to telling her my feelings, problems, thoughts and dreams. I'm much more reserved. I'v been like this since i was a child. She's busy with work, so she can't really give a listening ear to each of us, her children.
• India
21 Nov 09
The post is really touching.. It made me cry.. thank you very much.. God bless you and all the mother lovers always