Am I asking too much?!?

We already got harder trials than this one. And we were able to surpass them. I just can't handle my emotions anymore that's why I posted it here to at least lessen what I am feeling.

@mcdreamy Telling him what I feel just make things worse. He'll get mad whenever I am mad. But if he's with the issues, I got no right to feel the same thing. It's really kinda hard understanding him.

tell him what you feel.. getting mad sometimes can make the relationship stronger..tell him how you really feel.

Yes I got your point. Actually, we got some similarities. To be honest, most of our issues are not really an issue at all. We are able to see each other at least once a week and whenever we are together, everything goes smoothly. Problems only exist whenever we are just away from each other. You've got a sweet boyfriend there. Although mine's sweet too, it's just he's not showing it most of the time.

he always tells me that all will be well when we are together again.. and i am banking on that.. i get to stubborn sometimes.. hehe

I got the opposite. Most especially when everything is all blurry and fuzzy between us. Although he's a totally different person whenever we are together.

That's what I want him to figure out on his own. I am already tired of keep on telling him how I feel. No matter how many time I repeat myself, it just won't get on his head. The other thing is that he's blaming this quarrel on me! He keep on saying that it's my fault cause I can't control my temper every time I am not feeling well. Which is true. I can't control myself everytime I am sick. He's always blinded by anger no matter how crooked his reasoning was.

Out of concern, are you having a medical condition? Gathering from what you have responded, I just get a feeling that there seems to be some pre-existing condition or that the flare ups were probably to do with your monthly cycles. I just hope that it is the latter. In any case, sent your boyfriend some materials to help him understand things better and see things from your POV. These things can be quite baffling to people especially men sometimes. So, in some sense bringing about an understanding will just be of help than anything here for you. Food for thought: Interestingly, how one would reposition their perception insofar of having the ability to fit the claim so nicely and yet logical - this self justification of what you think is good for the relationship may merely be a product of your unevolved perception, which I might add is rather unhealthy for your relationship. If your relationship suffers and not benefit from your definition of what Love is to you, then you might have to review the entire relationship from scratch again. The reason I see, why you are always compromising on your part, even till the extend of lowering your dignity, is because you are afraid that he might just turn around and walk away forever. Your fear of leading life without his presence coerced you to accept any odds, regardless of how ridiculous or unreasonable it may seem. So understandably, your behaviors here are driven by fear, much less motivated by love. The paradox in Love: the more you fear you will lose him, the more damage you will unconsciously deal to the relationship. I hope that you will give some thoughts here and that you will be able to bring this relationship to another level. A level that will be on par with your beliefs and not be one which is being easily exploited and manipulated. Take care and do get well soon.

Thanks for the advice. Well, he already approached me last night when I went to sleep. He texted me saying sorry for what he did when he thought that I am already asleep (even if I'm not ).

At least some people can see things my way. You got some right points in your post and apparently that's how things are right now.

His temper mostly cools down after 1-2 days. That's the kind of a guy he is. He's always seeing things through his angry eyes. Some of our fights if it'll took some days to settle, sometime he approaches me but sometimes not. I can't get his reasoning at all. Although I do love him so much.

You got it. He's the moody type of a guy so it's kinda hard to reason out with him. But we're good now. Thanks for the response.

Everything's good now between us. Thanks for the response .

Thanks for that. It's one of the reasons I posted it here. So that at least I can have some outlet for my emotions. He's a nice guys and all, the only problem is that when he's also on his peak moments. He would not listen to a thing you're going to tell him. But as time calms him down, he do approaches me though. I am just quite mad at him for not even just taking into consideration what I feel.

Yes you're right. It's just really hard to compromise if the two of us are in the bad mood. Last night was a tough night cause of the said issue. But everything's good now. He already said sorry to me upon going to bed and we are good now. Thanks for the response.