You're heart crushing, mind jumping, tornado spinning, worst day

@karma118 (294)
United States
January 22, 2010 4:37pm CST
I want to know Bout them, and how you felt. The worst day of my life was March 10, 2009. That's the day my world ended and he'll began. My mother passed away that day, the hardest day of my life. She was my bear friend and as I watched her pass into a new realm, I felt at peace. Actually, I felt at peace for the whole week afterwards, then the sun hid behind a demoniZed cloud. A cloud filled with turmoil and despair. My whole world turned to dust. My syomache sank. I couldn't speak. All I could do was hug the porcelain pee god and throw up my sadness. I still see that day, every minute of it in my head everyday. Please share with me. A group of misery writers just might be a group of self help.
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@writersedge (22563)
• United States
22 Jan 10
The night my brother was in the worst accident of his life was rough. But the day I learned that he would be paralized from the waist down for the rest of his life that was worst than anything I had ever experienced. I was in shock and tried not to let it sink in. Then the neighbors called all day to find out how he was doing, so I told them. The 30th call, I couldn't take it any more. After that call, I went out in the field and sat in the tall hay and just cried. I was surrounded by nothing but hey. I could see no one, no one could see me, I couldn't hear the telephone. It was like time stood still and the world was silent. Eventually, I came to my senses and I could hear the birds, the wind, etc. I had to back in and answer the phone in case my parents called. That was before caller ID. I wouldn't have answered the phone if I could have avoided it.
@karma118 (294)
• United States
23 Jan 10
Wow. That's tough stuff and I'm sorry you had to go through that. Even more so, your brother. I hope you both find a new respect for living after that ordeal and I'd you didn't, I hope you do soon. He was meant to stay on this earth for a reason, maybe unknown still but nevertheless real. I believe hat fully and with all of my heart and I hope youdi as well. Much love to you. And peace.
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@dragon54u (31636)
• United States
23 Jan 10
Two worst days, actually, both equally traumatizing. The day my husband, without warning, told me he was leaving and filing for divorce--while I was trying to get myself together he walked into my son's room and bluntly made the same announcement, not even allowing me to soften the blow. That was almost 5 years ago. Two years ago I lost my oldest brother and I thought it would kill me--I still don't remember a couple of days from that time but the dogs were fed and watered and the house didn't burn down. I was all alone here--it seems I always am when my world explodes. At least I had God to comfort me. I remember laying on my bed crying and feeling someone pull me close-it was a real physical sensation and I've never felt so loved. Anyway, the divorce was one of the best things to ever happen to me as it turns out. I still miss my brother but he visits me in dreams and I can feel his arm around me as we walk around a garden and have a nice talk about stuff.