how do you feel if you know that you cannot give children to your husband?

Maybe I am one of the example, I married my wife when I was 22, I long for a child so much but my wife could not get pregnant. We visit many doctor for the check up but still there was no result. We were going for a sperm count and I abhore it so much. I felt frustrated with the taunting of my friends that I am barren , or I was a playboy that i have no more ability to make. I have to accept all those taunting with a smile but deep in my heart I was grieving inside. It was six years, I loose hope and I am not interested anymore. It happens that I was sent to work in Leyte and far away to Manila that I could only see my wife every month. I was alone in my room at night and try to reminisce my past And maybe my friends were right.Being alone renders me to be more vulnerable to all evils in life. But I said no , I wont do it this time but rather I learned to pray to God. I remember praying to God so intense that lead me to cry, but that experienced was so good and I could hardly stop myself from crying, I tell you my shirt was all wet with tears as I pleaded God to forgive me for all the sins that I have done during my youth and this time I promised that I will not do it again. Leyte was such a beautiful place with beautiful girls. I remember one time that a girl came to my office and offering her body to me with nothing in return. I told her i was married but she said its okay and she will never bother my family. i said no , not this time, for I knew that God was testing me again. So many test that i passed and thanking God that i was able evade those girls. I spent a year in Tacloban Leyte and that was christmas vacation when i went home and see my wife. I went back to leyte after new year and it was february when i phoned her and telling me that she was pregnant. Wow after seven years. I will advise those with the same situation to be more prayerful, now i have 4 happy kids. Its like a miracle.lol