Life Changes - Why so hard to decide or let go
By KarissaAngel
@KarissaAngel (362)
United States
May 25, 2010 4:41pm CST
Losing a job is hard enough but when you make a decision and know it is the right one, why is it so hard to accept. I relocated 15 years ago and presently have a great job until the end of June. Corporate downsizing. For the past two years I have been wanting to go back home and now I have the chance. But I cry and cry because I don't want to leave. My friends tell me that once I get back home I will feel better but I am just not as excited as I should be. I am driving back which is almost 2000 miles and selling all my belongings or giving them away. Everytime I sell something I get sad.
I have no fear of the unknown and a new start would be good and love challenges. I just feel like I am in limbo. I made some really good friends here moreover than the state I grew up in. Maybe that is because I am a bit older now and the lasting friends do come later in life. I am independent, strong and land on my feet but not sure what my problem is. Maybe I am on here to vent because I have nothing to fear but fear itself. Maybe I just got too comfortable. I know that I had not planned to return home for another 6 years, maybe the layoff came too soon for me to anticipate. I just need to get excited to go back home to my family. They are excited for me to come home finally.
1 response
@raynejasper (2322)
• Philippines
25 May 10
..hi.. indeed, many things in life are easier said than done.. I may tell you to move on and spend your life with your family who is excitedly waiting for you, however, the decision is yours to make.. I know its hard right now, but I believe as time time goes by, you will be able to overcome the pain.. just give yourself a break and let time heal the wound in your heart.. right now, focus your mind and heart on your family because they are your dearly loved ones and they are waiting for you to join them.. lay down your hurts if you can, and cover it with the advantages that you will have when you go home.. imagine your self spending happy times with your family.. you may have friends there, but you have your family at home who will be there for you till the end.. friends may come and go, but family will remain with you.. consider all the positive side and help yourself to understand that life needs moving on.. As I've said, I may have given you those 'advices' but its up to you to decide.. nobody can make the choice for you but you alone because it concerns your life and your happiness..
@KarissaAngel (362)
• United States
26 May 10
Thank you for your kind response. My family is important to me and that unconditional love means a lot to me. I make friends easily and know I will not have a problem there, or being happy, or finding a new job. My mother is flying out to take the road trip back with me and maybe when I actually see her and we vacation back the healing may begin. I do want to go home, indeed, just got too comfortable here, I guess. I have told my family not too overwhelm me too much when I get back as I need some time and my mother understands but my brother does not. He wants to get the whole 15 years I been gone filled with activities in the summer months. (I leave July 1st) Makes me smile but in any case, your words were friendly, understanding and most welcome in my thoughts to shake this off and feel happy to have my family around on a daily basis. I have longed for that and that is what I should be looking forward to. Again, thank you so much, raynejasper.
