Memorial Day - Holiday Weekend
@hardworkinggurl (37062)
United States
May 29, 2010 2:42pm CST
This weekend is a sure sign that summer is fully on it's way. Today I went to run some errands when I notice many shoppers prepping for this weekends long barbeques and family activities... Almost dropped me to tears. I was a very young single mommy who raised to wonderful blessed children. My baby just two weeks ago graduated college and will remain away at school. My oldest also lives away in another state as she is 26 with a baby and life of her own.
Watching the people giggling and purchasing all the festive items makes me wonder if having had my children as young as I was was such a great idea? I am now in my early forties and have a wonderul boyfriend, so life is suppose to be good, but wait, here we are a long holiday weekend and nothing celebratory to do. Memories of my wonderful events when the children were around, remind me of the wonderful life I had, and how I would do anything to have them little again with me. Watching their acchievements, make me proud but sad at the same time as I devoted my entire life to them and not am left with only the memories and nothing for myself, not even my own interests. It's a long weekend and I feel empty with nothing really to do. I am sure many of you have the answer, that perhpas I need to venture out more? Well with the downward spiral of the economy, there went my job for which I was employed for over 20 consecutive years, so being able to venture out will be a bit finacially difficult. So how do I fill the holiday blue gap, so it doesn't continue to consume my every thought?
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@snowqueen200802 (1463)
• United States
29 May 10
Hi hardworkinggurl
I have five children which our all grown and have moved alway from me and I miss them dealy, therefore I know how you feel. I had my child with I was also young and now it's just me and my husband so I try to fill my holidays with things that I like to do or always wanted to do but never had the time or money.
Take care
Snow
@hardworkinggurl (37062)
• United States
29 May 10
Yeah, I thought that was what I was suppose to do after the kids left. As they were growing up I always said, yippee, once they were grown I was going to be able to do lots of things. Trouble is that I worked so much in life and did the whole make sure the children had alot of quality time, that I find myself with no personal interests of my own. All of my friends and collegues have small kids so it's hard to do things with them as I feel like a third wheel. Then being unemployed for the first time in my life and having loads of bills it's hard to go out and do anything. Oh well, I will keep pluggin away at the computer with hopes that the holiday blues subside.
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@snowqueen200802 (1463)
• United States
29 May 10
My friend I don't have a lot of money what I meant was: I can knit, read a book, do a puzzle chat on the phone and the INTERNET things like that.
I know about the blues because when my youngest left home that is when it really hit me the hardest and I didn't know what to do because i was a mother for a very long time.
Take care my friend
Snow
