just how i deal with having depression

United States
June 3, 2010 7:56am CST
here i am in my 40's my life havent been nothing but some kind of pain either caused by others, or just my body. ive been through so much through my life, from being bullied getting beat not just in school but also at home by my brother, then getting into drugs, and drinking. then getting into a street gang that ended up me leaving and having a contract on my life. yeah too bad they werent as tough as me.. but been in many accidents and coming close to dying a few times. then me getting hurt time and time again. now here i am in my 40's, and being told i have an body of an 80 year old man, waking up being sore and stiff. having trouble walking. i have even have brain damage as well. then having bipolar and being manic depression. been told two years they cant explain how or why i am still walking. dont know dont question it. then i got things that do make me depress as well not seeing our grandsons as much as i would like. we saw them twice this year. they live 20 min away. and not being able to work to earn more money to live comforatable. lot of people who knows my story often ask me how can i go through life with such a good out look? and how can i be happy ? i learned along time it could always be worst, and there are people out there got it worst then i do. i sit and make fun of my mess up life. laugh at everything. when it comes to people who are the cause of me being upset or depress i am like oh well screw it and screw them and cut ties. but i take everything ive been through in my life, bad or good and teach others from my experances. ive had gotten people off drugs, stop drinking stop them from joining gangs. helped people who's been in a manic state out of it. best advance always look for a postive in whatever in your life, and think well it could have been worst.
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11 responses
@peedielyn (1210)
• United States
3 Jun 10
I am not pushing my faith onto you but have you ever thanked God for your life being spared so many times? It seems to me that that is the only supernatural excuse for you still being around. I have been in your shoes in many of those areas and I can only thank one "person" for that and He is God. He doesn't give you more than you can handle and you seem to come out alright. I think you need to take one day at a time and go from there. Living in the present is a good way to look back on things and hope for future things. He is obviously watching you in many ways and has given you many chances. I think if you tried, you could talk to Him in prayer, and see what comes of it. It can't get any worse, but much better. Good luck to you. I hope things get better, day by day....
• United States
3 Jun 10
i thank God every morning and every step i am able to take each day. i am bless with so much from good family and friends, and the doctors who keep me straight and help me along the way. i am bless to have three friends who came to me and helped me build my faith in God
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@besthope44 (12141)
• India
5 Oct 10
Most time, its my work..with ontime deliveries and work loads. I try to divert mind on music and i feel better.
• Philippines
19 Jul 10
I think you're a very strong person. All those things that you experienced, would make an ordinary person just give up. Hang in there, the only reason why you are experiencing that is because YOU chose that for yourself before you were born. So you can learn a lot from your journey in life. Take care.
@lmurdock (56)
• United States
7 Jun 10
You have a positive perspective in the end. That is admirable. People who have never dealt with depression or bipolar disorder can't understand how low the lows can be. When you have a chemical imbalance, a condition as real and as important as a heart disorder to treat, you often cannot help when you feel low. You can't help the thoughts that race through your head. Combine that with the difficult circumstances you have endured and you can look back and say you have something to show for you 40 years. You are right, there is always someone who has it worse. I applaud you for using what you have learned to teach others, despite your continued battle with depression. It's tough. God will see you through. Keep thanking Him for the little things. God bless.
@chanlot (191)
• Indonesia
4 Jun 10
Life is not stable, sometimes happy and sometimes sad. I usually remove the depression by going to beautiful places or watching a movie. In addition I also try to forget something that makes me depressed and trying to create something that makes me happy if I may know what makes you depressed sir?
@med889 (5954)
4 Jun 10
Life is an echo syankee525, we have to give the best to get a great deal back however sometime we have to give only what is required to be in the good path, nothing is lost yet as you still have your life, you just need a little planning of how things should be for you and how you wish them to be taken out.
• United States
4 Jun 10
I know it's hard. I have severe depression and anxiety myself, and the only thing I can say is keep trucking. Some days it's really hard, but not giving up is what makes us better people.
@basqui (3890)
• Philippines
4 Jun 10
I'm nearing my 30s and I don't think I can reach 50 from what I'm feeling in my bodies right now, I don't know if I have some disease or something, I'm really lazy to go to the doctor, I'm just happy I'm alive right now. I don't know if I'll wake up tomorrow or not. I'm just happy living my life in each and everyday despite the things that are not going good on many ways.
• United Kingdom
4 Jun 10
That's definitely quite a history of turmoil! I have been through depression myself and I'm pleased to say that I'm over the worst of it now. I still have days when I do feel down in the dumps and I have been able to find different coping strategies! I love to exercise and so I cycle on a regular basis, this definitely helps me beat my depression! I try to focus on the positive aspects of life now and I agree with what you say, there's always someone having a far more powerful experience than you or I. I'm just glad that there are so many good books now on the subject of depression and negativity. It sounds like you have helped quite a few people and I'm sure that they are grateful to you now for what you did for them in the past. I'm taking each day as it comes now and I try to keep smiling despite what life may or may not throw at me! Andrew
• Philippines
3 Jun 10
I read somewhere that said "tough times don;t last but tough people do" and I have etched it in my heart and mind,Every time a tornado hits me and ready to give up I go back to those lines and try to get back up. I'm so proud of you. You messed up but found the courage to get back up and help others out of it or stop them from walking into a big mess. I read TD Jake's novel and He said " Obstacles in our path can be our stepping stone to greatness if we learn from it". I agree 100% with that. God won't waste our rough times He will use that if you let him to transform you to become the person you should be. People use to misinterpret about living abundantly. They think living abundantly is the happy go lucky kind of life. No worries or fear, but what I learned of living abundantly is that you can be in a very very bad situation but you are living above that situation not below it. That you are grateful inspite of what happened and you do not let it get to you. That you have surrendered everything to God come what may because He gives and takes, He always rewards the faithful one at the end.
@patgalca (15677)
• Orangeville, Ontario
3 Jun 10
I am also in my 40's. I've had some rough times too. Currently I have fibromyalgia (for 14 years) and at times it can be rough. I have learned my limitations and to pace myself but I still get depressed. Recently I read a quote about depression not being a sign of weakness. Although I kind of agree with that, it made me reflect on my life. Honestly, I have been weak my whole life. I was in an oxygen tent as an infant (don't know what that was about at all); the youngest of 5 children who are much older than me so I was a wall flower most of my teenage years and took a lot of flak from my siblings; as a teenager I was a third wheel when it came to friendships; I married the first guy who came into my life and though he was abusive I married him anyway sticking it out for 6 years until he left. I could go on as that was just the first 30 years of my life. Though I now have two beautiful teenage daughters who I am very proud of, I still feel like I've missed out on so much in life, am not accomplishing much of anything... and weak. I am glad you have found humour to help you through. My children keep me laughing. I just wish things had turned out differently and am not sure how to change them. I know a positive attitude can go a long way to making life happy and as much as I know it, saying it and doing it are two different things. Good luck to you, my friend.