do you ever feel like commiting suicide?

June 4, 2010 5:31pm CST
I do all the time.. my life is perfectly adequate just normal really but I want so much more out of life and it seems impossible sometimes I wish I could just press a button and be dead but I'm scared of the pain of suicide and what I'd do to my little sister otherwise I would do anything to be dead.. life is so boring and sucks
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@Wizzywig (7858)
5 Jun 10
I have had that feeling at times but, after a close relative of mine did just that, I know the heartbreak it brings to the people who are left behind. I saw the pain and desperation of his daughter, mother, sister.... You are too young to be feeling that life has let you down & I truly hope that opportunities will open up for you to do some of the things you want. Take care
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5 Jun 10
aww im sorry about the pain its caused you, thats exactly why i wouldnt do it i wouldnt want to hurt my family. im sorry you had to see this discussion as it must be hard having it happen to family member.. and thanks for the words of wisdom
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• United States
4 Jun 10
I had a battle of the blues and took a bottle of pills. I could not remember even having my daughter. I was so deeply depressed that I could not function anymore. I just laid in my bed and went to sleep. My neighbor who never came to my house found me in bed. I was in the hospital before I even knew who I was. Now I can't imagine doing this to my daughter. I felt bad for what I did and that would most likely never happen again.
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4 Jun 10
hello again giftsandhandbags and thats nice that you wouldnt put your daughter through it, dont think i could put my 10 year old sister through it too itd be too much damage for her. but life really is so unsatisfying for me and prbably for a lot of other people too
@kooltiger (851)
• Pakistan
4 Jun 10
yes it always come to my mind.. and i dont want to be in this world any more.. people are just so selfish.. mean.. they live for themselves..
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4 Jun 10
i completely understan why you wouldnt want to be in this world nothing is satisfying and everything just sucks.. and people make me angry, who love themselves
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• Pakistan
4 Jun 10
yes that is what i wanted to say.. just when we think that we are in the rite place something happens.. and we are back from the start or may be below from the start position.. i had many friends.. but later i found that they are just selfish and girls follower.. they dont care about any other thing.. my trust upon any one has just shaken badly.. i cant trust.. and i know that is bad.. and now i pray to God that plz take me back.. i dont want to live here..
4 Jun 10
ha yeah everytime something is looking up something comes and slaps us in the face or if we think something is going to turn out positive it doesnt turn out the way you wanted and turns out bad.. and i do without friends now i find my friends boring and everything boring and will you ask god to take me back to and give my life to someone who wants to live it
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• Philippines
5 Jun 10
Your life become so boring if you do not know the purpose of life but if you do your life became so meaningful. Did you know that life has a purpose and God gave this wonderful gift to use it wisely, we are created because He wants us to enjoy life not to live in this hatred world. If you need a friend I am here, I am more than willing to help and comfort you whenever you have a problem. Just treat me as a friend or even your sister. I'd love to do that for you.
@wiggles18 (2522)
• Canada
5 Jun 10
So you are saying there is a purpose to life? So one could say we must find that purpose, and so you could say our purpose in life is to find the purpose of life. But then, you see, that that is the answer itself. The purpose itself is to find the purpose.But, it just goes around in circles with itself....
5 Jun 10
lol wow ill just go along the yellow brick road and find a purpose.. something like that is supposed to come natural isnt it? and i don't really think theres a purpose of life anyway we're just living it and not everyone likes it.. the harsh reality is people are miserable for the rest of their lives and i am not a god believer but appreciate that you want to be a friend..
@goldeneagle (6773)
• United States
4 Jun 10
every damn day...but my puppy dogs keep me going strong...
4 Jun 10
do you really? would be nice to know im not the only one who craves to die
@karen1969 (1788)
13 Jun 10
It will improve! You are so young and have so much coming up in your life. Chances are you will fall in love, get maried, have a career, have kids, travel - so many things ahead. But you just need to wait and see. I left home at 18 to go to University, I was married at 20, a mother at 21. Things can change so quickly.
@vastari (331)
• Ireland
12 Jun 10
I have. On numerous occasions in fact, fortunately something always comes along to prevent me from going through with it. When I lost my best friend, I made it into college. When I almost lost everything, I found one thing greater than everything else. There's always a reason to keep going on, you just have to find it. Have the courage and ambition to live. Anyone can die. The people who live through tough and painful times are those who deserve their new chance.
@moog27 (60)
12 Jun 10
As people have suggested below, I think it is best that you speak to your GP. My depression hit rock bottom when I was about 17 and I wanted to not be here anymore for various reasons that i wont go into. But my doctor put me on antidepressants and some other tablets and although it took a while, things started to get better. Now it is quite a few years on and I am happy and no longer need the medication. It is important to get help when you need it.
@karen1969 (1788)
12 Jun 10
I am really sorry you feel this bad. Have you been to see your GP? You might need medication for depression. I was on anti-depressants for 3 years and it really helped me get over a terrible period when I felt so low and lethargic. My Uncle killed himself in 1987, which was a terrible time in my life. I was 17 and I still clearly remember my aunty ringing in hysterics, as he had hung himself and she walked into the house to find him there. It was just terrible. You really don't want to put your family through that kind of pain.
@charylady (424)
• Philippines
5 Jun 10
yes especially when i was younger. maybe that was because when we are young we are still very idealistic. but we live in an imperfect world so we are disillusioned and disappointed most of the time. and that's when we may think that it's all hopeless and useless to go on living. but just hang in there; you are in this world for a purpose. you may not be clear yet as to what this might be; some people spend a lifetime trying to find that purpose.
@sharad7 (85)
• India
5 Jun 10
No i think to do that kind of thing in my life because these things are not showing your braveness in your life no one ever think that kind of incident in his life because this life is given by god and god is the only person who have a right to get back his life not us.
• United States
5 Jun 10
I have thought about it quiet a few times. I think my life is pretty normal too but there just doesn't seem to be any meaning to my life. I go to school and get decent grades and then I go home, and just play on the computer until the day is over. Sometimes I really think I would do it but then I know it would hurt my mother very much. In fifth grade, my mother was crying because she couldn't afford to buy me an expensive violin and she wanted the best for me. So I guess taking my life can't be an option.
@prinzcy (13244)
• Malaysia
5 Jun 10
No, I don't. I am taught of it as a sin and running away from solving problem. Therefore whenever time get tough, I always remind myself that it's an obstacle in life and I will survive it, regardless what. There's a silver lining behind everything, we just can't see it. Besides, if I do something like that, I will hurt the heart of my love ones. The scar will be deep for them.
• Canada
5 Jun 10
Dear life is so beautiful and it depends how you look it and how you feel it. you see the nature it is so good but we people have different thinking due to which we feel mental tensions. I never feel down and boring ..., if i feel i endulge in some activity so that i can be busy enough.
• Philippines
5 Jun 10
hi chantal, you know its funny because im so depressed when i logged on mylot and your post caught my attention almost at once lol. Im so much older than you and yet here i am starting to hate my life. I honestly havent read all the threads in your post bcoz it will just ruin what im about to say. It has been so many years I've been asking myself my purpose in life. What i want to do and all that stuff. And I'm a bit embarrass with that up until now i feel i haven't done so much in my life. I feel like no one and nobody. I do feel like im giving up and just vanish from this world. The thing is, im not giving up my fight just like that. Im not dying without giving this life a good fight. And the very first person i would want to fight is ME. You sound so smart sweetie, atleast give it a good fight okay?
@meinana (51)
• China
5 Jun 10
sometimes,I am thinking of sucide,cause of boring life,I dont like the way I am going on,but I just cant quit,so just come on and on,I hope one day,something could happen and change my life,I am just do my best and wait for the miracle.
• Philippines
5 Jun 10
hello chantalreanne.. YES I DO! AND i felt this once during hardest part of my marriage life.. i almost kill my self.. all were set... the rope the chair and myself and when the time i put the rope in my neck i suddenly glance at the back of my closed door and i saw the face of JESUS CHRIST in a calendar..(i usually hung calendars at the back of a door room.)i look at his eyes as it seems hes looking at me too.i felt my body was shaking and i am so cold.. i started to cry and slowly i went downstairs and look for my 3 kids and i hug them so tight thinking how silly am i cos if i die who will take care of them.. up to this moment i always thanking GOD that HE gave me a chance to think what are the consequences of taking my own life.. so always PRAY for GOD is wonderful!