A not so good son into a father
@waterproofpaper (139)
Philippines
July 14, 2010 12:11am CST
Before i feel bad whenever my father gets drunk every night and almost forgot about his family. I always thought that he's just doing what he wants and doesn't really care at all. Giving my mother only few of what he have to feed his family then after that its like a puzzle where to get the next food in our plate. So with this i ended up a rebel, not that bad but trying to do something that i know against their will, or maybe trying to live somebody else's life just to escape the life that i hate but what can i do it is the reality. I always blame my father about what happened in my life why he cant give me the life that other people has. Then an incident happen that totally changed my life, i am going to be a father, and little by little i understand the sacrifices and the pain they take just to be my guide and grow as a good person, i realized that they do all they can while I'm not able to appreciate it because I am too young to know the things happening. and after that the things i see and looked are the ones in favor of them. Selfish in short, I'm a damned selfish,. Now my father is gone and I missed the time to say goodbye and thank him for all of that. I know this story is very common and a lot of people experienced it. So I'm hoping now that my son will not gonna live this way and I keep on trying to do all I can so that he will not blame me when he grow up..
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@waterproofpaper (139)
• Philippines
15 Jul 10
Right, thanks to that..and a lot of lesson learned here, especially how to be strong, we can't predict what might happen, just be ready and never be afraid in living life.
@markphil (285)
• Philippines
14 Jul 10
You know just always put in your mind that you are still a lucky person. You know why? Because you still have a father. I don't have a father anymore, and I took his responsibility to discipline my little brother and sister. At the same time I am the breadwinner of the family. Take that as a challenge that when you have a family you know how it feels and never do those things to your children.
@waterproofpaper (139)
• Philippines
14 Jul 10
Thanks, actually right now, we're at the same situation, my father left us 9 months ago. During the typhoon Ondoy, and its hard for me because we haven't talk and its just a surprise after 2 weeks of not going home that i can not talk to him anymore. He leave me a lot of responsibilities for my mom and brothers but since i have my own family I I am not able to do my task to them, but I'm trying to do my best of running 2 families at the same time.
@MONEYNEVERSLEEPS (111)
• Indonesia
14 Jul 10
I think it's not all your fault, people do regret things after it happens, not before it. And your father should've know that he must take care his family and you better than that. (just my opinion)
So now just do your best for your family and child, and try not to do the same mistake like your father did ;)
best luck for you and your family ^ ^
@gifappel1 (8)
• South Africa
11 Oct 10
You are going to be a GREAT FATHER, you ARE A GREAT FATHER.
Congratulations, there is nothing better than being a parent, especially when you learn from your childhood. I also had to realize a couple of things when my son was born.
All worth it.
