im really getting #$%@$%@#$%...

huhm , my cousin sister doesn't make any trouble. But she is my trouble. I hate her. She got everything good in life. Beauty ( maybe) , rich , get into a famous college, smart, good talking ,...every1 like her, even my mom . I feel like my mom like her than me. She always talk about her, good things . Huhm, at first , i think it's normal and i don't care about that when my mom compare me with her. But now, i'm scare. I feel like a stranger in my house, like a shadow, no1 care about me, except my dad. Member of family like her, not like me. I'm just a girl who didn't get in famous college, stupid, not good at talking , not beauty...Yes, that who i am

Sometimes I hate my older sis also. I feel like she's toxic to me. I hate her voice especially if she command do this do that...she is not soft spoken, not compatible as sisters...

i could see from your message that you're too much angry and this is not the first time it happened. have you tried talking to her about this? approach her ask her why she's doing it and tell her how upset you are when she does. let her know what it makes you feel and how you are hurt. Make her understand that if she's in your situation she wouldn't like it to be that way also. When you talk to her make sure that you're already calm and not angry. Talk to her as a friend and make her feel comfortable with the conversation.